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2009-06-04T23:22:00.002+08:00

And God said, "Let there be light," and there was light.

how sweet this sentence is.. the absolute sovereignty of our Almighty God.. today i had the taste of it.. one wrong move in our decision, and we can expect things to fall from the top right to the bottom.. today i fell.. and now i had to climb all the way back up again.. i wouldnt refer it as "a walk with Jesus".. i call it "a climb with Jesus".. imagine a climbing a cliff without the safety precautions.. and i thought i knew how to climb on my own.. so i went ahead.. leaving Jesus further down there.. ignoring His cries for me to slow down and test all the rocks stability.. and there, a weak foundation rock was all it took for me to fell.. all the way to the bottom.. He couldnt save me (obviously He could, but just for this story's sake), for i went too far ahead of Him.. and there, He cried.. and then He jumped down too, to the bottom.. just to start the climb again with me..

its really fatal.. i felt like i couldnt face Him.. yes, i couldnt.. i bowed down in remorse.. waiting for my punishments.. and there, i felt teardrops.. and my heart broke, tears streaming down.. again and again, i promised never shall i climb on my own.. but each time it just happens again.. i couldnt find any excuse.. im beyond hope..

so i just remained bowed.. waiting and waiting.. for i could not say anything anymore.. wad a untrustworthy man i am.. who in the right mind would trust me now? theres the me.. never keeping any promises i made.. i reproached myself.. i hate myself.. for failing so easily.. speechless..

2009-05-28T23:35:00.003+08:00

*WARNING*
ranting post coming up, please leave if u dont want to read

just had one of the worst day of my life..

went to watch soccer yesterday night.. barcelona won! thats one good thing.. then when i went out today, i didnt see one single man utd jersey on the streets.. that should silent the man utd fans for awhile..

slept till late today.. woke up at 10.30am.. my eyes still damn red.. been red for the whole night.. i lied that its not itchy or painful.. it was actually quite uncomfortable.. not like the pain or itch will go away if i complained or wad.. so no point bothering anyone =) didnt want to spend that money to go and see doctor..

stomach was uncomfortable in the morning.. went toilet twice.. left house for aljunied, continued to felt uncomfortable on the train.. Thank God i managed to make it all the way to aljunied.. went to the swee lee warehouse to check out guitar.. after choosing wad we wanted, we need the approval.. honestly, to my surprise, we were rejected.. for some reasons that i didnt think was valid at all.. but wad could we say under such power and dictatorship? left swee lee with only a cable.. i wanted to buy the special drumstick, but it costs $44.. so i gave up on it.. stomach was again uncomfortable.. went to the toilet there.. only had the squatting one.. and boy do i hate squatting ones.. but had no choice.. went to kopitiam for some drink and chitchat..

after that went down to airport T1 for dinner.. went back T3 for shopping.. bought some stuff.. drained all my money.. i was left with nothing in my wallet.. how pathetic.. before leaving, i went to the toilet again.. then after we board the bus, i felt stomachache coming.. went down when it reached T2 and rushed to the toilet.. and the toilet is seriously creepy.. so i quickly finished off and went off.. so that was my 5th visit to the toilet in one day.. the worse part is that my ez-link card had no money left.. so i gave $1.90 in coins the first time.. and then another $1.90 to go home.. in addition to that, the 2nd time i board the bus, i had no seat! i had to stand all the way till yishun..

upon reaching home, i took my phone to charge.. and i checked my messages cos the battery was flat.. to my dismay, the middle joystick button got stucked! so its like touchpad now.. upon slight contact with the joystick, it will be pressed.. which is quite troublesome.. first the battery spoilt and bloated.. then now the button jammed.. oh.. how great.. and the lack of money to buy new battery means that the phone could explode anytime in my ear.. signal to start using my army phone earlier? perhaps..

on top of that, apparently i made someone angry.. bad day bad day.. but i thank God for giving me one more day to live on Earth..

2009-04-01T01:17:00.005+08:00

had an average birthday.. or maybe just that i didnt go out celebrate, thats why i think it sucked.. well.. 20th already finally.. stepping into the "2" already.. scary.. how time flies heh.. okies.. shall not say too much stuff..

Thanks to yenyee ds, xiangyun, zhiyuan, justina, qing, my mum, zhihui jie, my bro yaomin, miaoxin.C.S, mone, huihui, wanqian, suying for their sms well wishes~

Thanks to xinying, guangliang, beatbeat, antz, jason, junrou, peiwei, ann, kok yeow, becky, joyce, jennie, shiang, herman, desmond, joseph, mingsing, miss tan, yvonne, jocelyn for the facebook wall wishes~

Thanks to xinlin, antz, guangliang for the msn well wishes~

Thanks to yitong ds, vince, miaoxin(again), shenhong for their in-person well wishes~

BIG THANKS to dearest WANYI~ who really made my day.. if not this will be one of the worst birthdays i had! Thanks for all the nice presents! <3 <3 <3 BIGGEST THANKS to GOD and MUM~ without God, i wouldnt be here.. without Mum, i wouldnt be here either.. Thanks Mum for carrying me for 9months and painfully brought me to the world.. Thanks Mum for caring and providing me for 20years! Cheers to Mum! *drop tears*

Toshiba 8GB Thumbdrive
Vince + XiangYun: Thanks for the thumbdrive =D

Amy Sands Worship Songs CD
ShenHong: Thanks for the CD, got some nice songs =D

Hovono Optical Mouse (not really a birthday present but i'll consider it as anyway)
From: ~WanYi~

*Slurps*

Yummy!!

Mmmhmm!!

Gone! =D
Birthday Cake baked personally by ~WanYi~ ^^
YUMMY!!

Very Cute Card with a Heart
Inside is quite cute too but no way i will post wads inside =P
From: ~WanYi~

BodyShop: White Musk for Men
Been eyeing that for sometime xD
From: ~WanYi~

Very Nice Small Bag
Guess wad isit for?
From: ~WanYi~

To put the BodyShop Eau de Toilette in!
From: ~WanYi~

Thats all for my birthday.. apologies if i missed out anyone in the thanking session just now..
~Cheers!~

2009-03-20T02:34:00.004+08:00

im feeling an uneasiness in my life.. something just isnt right.. not that theres something missing.. something just isnt functioning right.. and i do wonder wad it is..

perhaps its cos i have lots of things to be done? and i cant decide which one to start with?

maybe its cos i've been idling too much? need a work..

maybe its cos the jobs that i looked up.. lots of them had requirements that i SHOULD have but dont have.. did i try to work hard to improve myself? or do i just suck?

maybe its cos i havent been exercising? nor eating healthily?

maybe its the fact that the treasury is running dry..

"learn to say no" how does one really say no in some situations? how does one say no to approaches when one is having holidays and "SO FREE".. its the small little things that we do, so says the archbishop.. how does having holidays equate to "so free"? to me, holidays are just times where we can finally do the things that we had to put aside for so long..

how does one really be humble? theres no way i can be considered humble.. and thats seriously very frustrating..

2009-03-11T00:39:00.002+08:00

looks like im addicted to playing with photoshop.. not the best looking.. but the its the best that i can produce =(

2009-03-10T01:25:00.003+08:00

yoohoo~ yays today was a rather fruitful day.. did some "client" animation project ^^ 1st ever hahax.. i finished up some stuff which required my attention.. like coming up with bass schedule, emailing about love loaves, signing up with airforce and doing introduction for forum proposal.. thats quite alot considering i wanted to slack away my day..

but i really hate slacking.. i cant stand being cooped up at home doing nothing.. even though i watched youtube tutorials.. but still.. it sucks having to sit down all day long.. i want to get out!! jio me out please!

2009-03-08T11:43:00.002+08:00

Fusion2009 ended finally! well to be honest, it was boring.. nobody really visited our booths.. and furthermore we have NS to go to.. so theres no hurry to get working.. heres a look at my booth..

at least there was something interesting.. i was visited by joker! WHY SO SERIOUS?!

and well.. i finally graduated.. Digital Entertainment Technology (Technical Direction) ^^

2009-03-02T23:31:00.002+08:00

allow me to perform a magic trick for you!

Preparing..

*poof* i went through the glass wall!

hahax a stupid thing.. just bored.. took this 2 pic quite long ago..

i got a new wallet!! from dearest wanyi~ =D so nice! ^^

woo~ have lots of things i wanna thank God for.. i wanna thank God for bringing me through this weekend.. this weekend had a loadful of things to do and think.. loadful of places and event to attend.. and somehow i managed to go through it without much problem.. especially the bible quiz part.. so Thank You Lord!

2009-02-26T00:45:00.002+08:00

烦呀烦！真是烦！看着那将要来临的事情，真是让人心烦。。在这几天内，有许许多多的事情等着我去做。。我是人，而每个人只由二十四个小时。。要做的事情好像都没有时间去做。。更让人心烦的是，在这几天内有很多的节目。。不但如此，这些节目的时间都一一的相撞。。真让我不知所措。。这些节目有如生日派对，乐团演出等等。。邀请我去的人都是对我很重要的人。。不去一个，就怕伤到另一个。。有没有人可以教教我怎么做才是最好的？

那些是烦恼的事。。可是还不是最令我头痛的。。更头痛的是钱的问题。。钱真是不够用。。我的银行的钱一瞬间的就消失了。。不是买别人的生日礼物就是花在吃上面。。而且要来临的 Fusion'09 也花费了我不少的钱。。没钱真是不好受。。钱不是万能的，可是没钱事万万不能的。。我现在才真正的了解这句话的意思。。

然而，我还是要把我的烦恼交在神的手上。。因为靠着自己来解决这些烦恼是不可能的。。唯独靠着神的能力我才能面对这些烦恼。。我会继续的向神祈祷，好让我可以把我的信心都放在神身上。。

[ 主啊，我恳切地祷告，希望你能听我的呼求。。主，我是个罪人，但是主你还是这么的接纳我。。主阿，我要谢谢你赐给我那美妙的恩典。。主啊，这个时候我把我的重担交托给你，求主你帮助我来面对这些烦恼。。求主赐我你那上头来得力量，让我能胜过这些的烦恼，好让你的荣耀能在我身上章显出来。。谢谢主你的一切一切，我将祷告献上，奉主耶稣得胜的名，阿门！ ]

2009-02-17T00:32:00.001+08:00

men cant live without God.. period

2009-01-27T23:39:00.003+08:00

Psalm 46:10
"Be Still, and know that I am God"

its amazing how God works.. when im down and confused, i bombarded God with a trillion "why" questions.. God responded with that one sentence..

2009-01-20T15:54:00.002+08:00

new post! hmm.. i dont find the urge to blog anymore.. probably cos many things are happening, making me busy and that too much had happened for me to remember what to blog.. hahax..

well i guess i would update whats been happening in my life.. what im busy with? school assignments mainly.. 3 more major assignments to go before im free~ *stressed* cant afford to fail my last modules.. well.. i guess i need a better comp at home so that i can run all the programmes i need.. sponsors anyone? hah!

church stuff.. lotsa programmes coming up in 2009.. things to manage and run.. things to support and be there.. getting rather tired.. probably the army is coming at the right time.. a big break for me and get my heart ready to serve more than ever when im done with army.. praying that i wont forget what i have to do and what im supposed to do at the right time..

on a lighter note, i've been on a few shopping trips with wanyi~ she bought her stuff, i bought mine.. fruitful! Thank God ^^

CNY's coming.. aint really looking forward.. except the angbaos.. typical singaporean teenager thinking huh.. but just thinking on how much weight i will gain scares me.. and i know i cant resist the temptations =P

okies i better stop blogging and get on my exercises.. napfa test's supposed to be in 2 days time.. but who cares? im so gonna fail it.. why bother? hah!

2009-01-06T22:59:00.004+08:00

所以我告诉你们，不要为生命忧虑吃什么，喝什么。为身体忧虑穿什么。生命不胜于饮食吗？身体不胜于衣裳吗？
你们看那天上的飞鸟，也不种，也不收，也不积蓄在仓里，你们的天父尚且养活它。你们不比飞鸟贵重得多吗？
你们哪一个能用思虑使寿数多加一刻呢？
何必为衣裳忧虑呢？你想野地里的百合花，怎么长起来，它也不劳苦，也不纺线。
然而我告诉你们，就是所罗门极荣华的时候，他所穿戴的，还不如这花一朵呢。
你们这小信的人哪，野地里的草今天还在，明天就丢在炉里，神还给它这样的妆饰，何况你们呢。
所以不要忧虑，说，吃什么？喝什么？穿什么？
这都是外邦人所求的。你们需用的这一切东西，你们的天父是知道的。
你们要先求他的国和他的义。这些东西都要加给你们了。
所以不要为明天忧虑。因为明天自有明天的忧虑。一天的难处一天当就够了。

马太福音 6：25-34

noted down these particular verses for myself.. cos im kinda under some tremendous pressure.. uncertain future is making me go scared.. as the days of army drawing near.. i began to wonder if my preferred choice of career path will materialize.. or rather i wonder if my preferred choice of career path is God's plan or not?

hearing about how tough the trainings are from pilots aint helping.. theres just somewhere that perseverance wouldnt reach.. things that are in God's hands, not mine..

thats why i need the above verses.. to remind myself that even if in the end i failed the pilot tests, He will still have something else for me.. what im really worried about is whether i could get the acceptance or not.. acceptance from everyone that im finally someone good enough.. or most would call it "man enough".. cos in the world, everyone sees everyone from human point of view.. not God's.. so 提摩太前书 4:12 doesnt exist in the human point of view.. why do human consider all the other factors (age, education, money, maturity etc etc) of the person first before considering if he's one who loves God or not.. shouldnt it be the other way round? cos when the person loves God, seeks God, wouldnt he be blessed by God? cos 马太福音 6：33 says 你们要先求他的国和他的义。这些东西都要加给你们了。

even as i wrote all that down, im claiming that i trust in God's ability.. but deep down, do i really trust Him?

2009-01-05T01:07:00.002+08:00

yay finally its the launch of the new group.. excited.. though theres so much things to be done.. 2009 certainly is a.... umm.... exciting year? many many things.. so many things to be done, so little time.. praying praying and still praying..

the devil is really powerful in his ways of distraction.. even through little things.. one night i was preparing to sit down and pray to God, then there was this cockroach that flew into my house.. so i couldnt pray and had to try to kill the cockroach.. and today at church, i prepared my tithe envelope already and was prepared to give.. then i realized i somehow misplaced it.. and i only found it at the end of the whole church service.. then tonight when i sat down and try to start our group blog, my internet totally dc-ed for quite sometime..

God's work isnt easy.. the devil certainly will try to stop us.. but if we perservere to the end, with God's help, we will definitely get through anything.. so obviously i managed to get all the things that i was supposed to do above done..

2008-12-26T20:04:00.002+08:00

aloha!! been long since i blogged.. hahax.. had been busy with lotsa stuff.. camps and stuff.. dates and christmas stuff.. too busy to blog.. =P

many thanks to all who gave christmas presents! =D

just wanna say..

HaPpY 1sT MoNtH~! how time flies.. 1 month already ^^

2008-12-12T01:42:00.002+08:00

double standard..

how i hate this 2 word.. it seriously sucks.. im not happy with some things.. not at all.. funny how people thinks..

2008-12-11T23:33:00.003+08:00

finally updating.. hmm.. seems like i got really really busy now.. no time to blog.. or rather i guess its too many things happening that made blogging a risk of becoming a thousand-page long entry..

all i can say is that im stressed out right now.. so many things to organise.. so little time.. camp stuff.. school stuff.. wad to do? pray..

theres probably only 2 things thats keeping me going.. and thats enough

2008-11-30T00:27:00.004+08:00

finally got my phone connected to my comp.. so finally got the pictures.. hmm.. wed night.. went to eat steamboat.. its the la mei zi steamboat at novena, opposite novena church.. hmm its not that bad.. but after eating, we walked past zheng fa and its serving alot more variety of food than la mei zi.. anyway they split into 3 different compartments.. 1 chicken soup, 1 mala, 1 tom yum.. and its very hot and spicy! ><

[Before]

[After]

wanyi, so happy and helping la mei zi advertising.. :)

<3!!

Random Photo: zhiyuan kicked me..

hmm.. sat night went to 2/4 class gathering.. sec 2 class.. thats like 5 years since sec 2 already.. initially it was nice to see everyone and stuff.. then it got boring.. cos like all the guys are talking about army stuff only.. the girls? all about uni stuff.. im like so out of this world.. to make things worse, almond coffee is nice.. but apparently nobody thinks so..

2008-11-25T00:29:00.002+08:00

a day of injuries today.. wy fell down while blading =( ouches.. and i broke a rib while playing dog and bone.. direct collision.. head to rib.. *crack*

reluctant to get myself out of bed this morning.. slacked abit at school.. sigh.. i'll never get my assignments done at this rate.. then its napfa training.. as usual its so tough.. think my fitness will never get any better.. that sucks..

met wy and zy for dinner.. i didnt eat.. 减肥! need to lose some weight.. then shop around j8.. went home.. and guess wad movie did i watch when i reach home.. lion king!! such a classic.. nice soundtracks.. love it.. remember the old times when i had the tape of it and i'll keep watching it over and over again..

ok shall stop here..

2008-11-23T23:40:00.008+08:00

my turn! my turn to post the pictures! hah! but wait.. good things are worth the wait.. so lets start with the wordy stuff.. yesterday went to church early in the morning for the wedding ceremony.. had to sing so went early.. and this wedding is one of the most packed ever in our church.. practically full house.. amazing! kebab is simply delicious.. food food food! fat fat fat!

after that went out with them..

and waiting for dinner to be served..

food is here! hows my photography skills? =p

u have to agree that even veggie looks so delicious! =)

food for 5.. so little right.. hah..

[ BEFORE ]

[ AFTER ]

MUAAAH!

CHEEEEEE!

poor zy.. held at gunpoint.. pointing at.. umm..

oo.. somebody's so not interested in taking photo with me =(

desserts! very nice!

abit of angle shot.. =)

vince's sucking on.. umm.. let the pic do the talking.. hah!

his name is 陈建州 aka 黑人.. not small black or black small la! anyway hes here to film something with fann wong.. so i heard..

that concludes my sat night =D great day!

2008-11-21T23:47:00.002+08:00

8kg worth of mangosteen is simply amazing.. my hands were shaking badly when i reached home.. and i barely have strength to type now.. ><

today was a pretty bad day i guess.. slept at 3am last night cos was doing claymodelling.. woke up 7am.. had school all the way till 6pm.. claymodelling isnt as fun as before.. pace is like real fast.. barely finished my arm and im supposed to do face already.. stressful..

reached church at 7pm.. prac the song and help with the deco.. barely can take it already.. mind jus goes blank.. and then it gets dizzy and before i know it, im swirling into blurness.. thats why i hate being tired.. my mind totally goes blank and then i'll feel very very very bad.. thats why i go all quiet.. and then its jus a vicious cycle..

ok mind blanked again..

2008-11-19T00:18:00.002+08:00

woots! great day today! no emo-ness!! my life's changing.. evolving! hahax..

spent the day watching 篮球火 with wy.. =D 1 episode 1 1/2 hour.. gosh.. finished 4 episodes.. thats like 6 hours straight ><

then after dinner went 祷告会.. pleased with my drums today =) cos dont really got obvious mistakes.. but of course still got a long way to go before can be considered "know how to play" standard.. and today is the 1st time that i felt like im worshipping while drumming.. other times cos got too many mistakes so its jus trying to play correctly mindset only..

i felt like im winning the battle! only time can tell if i really won it or not.. pray hard!

ooo im just like a kid!

2008-11-05T01:52:00.003+08:00

gonna be 2am soon.. i cant sleep.. i dont want to sleep.. haha.. is this gonna be another emo post? hope not..

wads the point of a blog? i guess its a way to "talk" to everyone at the same time and not talking to 1 person 1 by 1.. but whos gonna be reading? not much i guess.. so i guess blogging is becoming like a talk to an imaginary friend.. gosh.. creepy..

ok i sense randomness in this post.. so many things on my mind.. i guess im gonna be typing whatever is in my mind at the moment..

okies i love the night.. silent.. own time.. nobody to disturb.. can do many thinkings, but often it becomes quite bad.. "thinking too much" many would say.. i agree.. hah.. still struggling to learn how to live properly.. wad a disgrace! and i still claim myself to be a christian.. but always falling short of God's standard of living.. i dont qualify at all as a christian.. failed terribly.. fail fail fail!

why is 24 hours never enough? time management? failed terribly.. fail fail fail again!

neglecting people as always.. why isit so hard to maintain all relationships? why cant i love everyone at the same level? relationship management? failed terribly.. fail fail fail yet again!

why are my money disappearing so quickly every week? wad did i buy? cant remember.. money management? failed terribly.. fail fail fail for the 4th time!

many many complaints.. whose fault? definitely not God's.. He began my life so great.. only for it to get destroyed by my own hands.. computer games kills! im serious! stop playing games! a little is fine.. jus not too much.. my life got destroyed by computer games.. life in a mess now.. life management? failed terribly.. fail fail fail..

20years old soon.. probably 1/4 of my life gone already.. looking at my term 1 report book now.. all Fs.. and its registering in God's records now.. oh dear oh dear.. what am i to do? what if i never wake up tmr? wad to tell God if i He ask what i've done for Him?

my wAnTs list just gets longer.. super materialistic.. i ask for too much.. >< why? simple.. i just wanna have stuff that others have too.. oh how i hate the quietness that i have to be when others are talking about stuff that i dont have or stuff that i never experience before..

oh my.. i felt like a pest..

2008-11-01T00:10:00.004+08:00

its 12.10am now.. and i have to slap myself for slacking so much.. till now i still have not done the questions for the bible challenge tmr! oh my oh my.. better get cracking after im done blogging..

been getting forgetful lately.. forgetting this and that..

been neglecting alot of stuff lately.. things and people.. sorry..

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!

here comes the werewolf!! or rather the 色狼.. as wad many people calls me..

saddening halloween night.. i so want to go out party.. but.. haix.. nvm.. trying hard.. perserverve!

had sculpting class today.. and im enjoying every bit of it.. except for the kneading of the super hard clay.. and to add that on, the aching from yesterday's napfa training..

this isnt mine.. but since i forgot to take a photo of the model in its initial state, i figure i would take someone else's.. this is sort of the initial state after the wiring.. the wires are covered with epoxy putty.. something that stinks and is real hard..

and this is mine.. some additions to the volume.. with the hard grey clay.. built up quite abit of it at the end of the day but no photos taken.. and this concludes my day..

hmm journey is hard.. but i will hang on.. hanging on.. hanging on..

okies i better start on the bible challenge.. man.. >< i hope i can get it out real quick..

2008-10-26T22:57:00.002+08:00

had a really really rough 1-2 weeks.. many things many things.. too much till i cant breathe..

wanna say many thanks to xinmei, joyce aka cookie stealer, zhiyuan, liyi.. especially cookie stealer! thanks! thanks for noticing and asking.. thanks for offering to listen.. really appreciate it.. u all made me realized true friends still exists.. i needa say sorry though.. i know how anticlimax an emo person can caused.. so sorry if i spoilt any mood..

thanks to yyds too for the short chat session.. cleared up lots of things and backing the decisions that i had made.. =)

2008-10-21T23:25:00.006+08:00

ladies and gentlemen, lets observe a min of silence...... for my long serving shoe! it finally retired today and died peacefully..

and say hello to the new kid in the block!

its great! i really love it! ^^ its got a really good story behind it.. hahx..

it first started with me walking in casually into the adidas shop in bishan j8.. then i saw this shoe and i like it at once.. so i look at the price.. argh.. too expensive.. sigh and left.. after that i got the holiday job at church.. woots money lai liao! i went back, ask for size 12+.. dont have.. they told me only 11 biggest in the whole singapore.. and at that time my pay hasnt arrived, so i KIV.. then after i got my pay, i went back again.. see the price, sigh and decided its too expensive again.. but after a few weeks, i went back yet again! this time i ask for the biggest size again, and to my amazement, they have a size 12!! and apparently its the display set from the citi-link branch and its the ONLY SIZE 12 left in singapore! from wad the guy said.. SO THANK THANK THANK GOD FOR THE SPECIAL SHOE HE GAVE ME!!

hmm.. im supposed to go jogging now.. but apparently im slacking off here blogging.. im sooooo unfit.. failed all station and 2.4.. mus be a record holder for achieving all failure.. sigh.. sigh.. sigh.. sigh.. sigh.. i swear one day im gonna be this strong! to be able to support a ceiling!!

oh yeah.. if u think dogs are cute.. think again.. a few days back i went to my friend's house and apparently he reared a HELLHOUND!! OMG!! =.=

thats all for today =)

2008-10-18T21:56:00.002+08:00

headache.. headache.. headache..

probably cos i slept at like 3am yesterday and woke up 7am to go to sembawang park today.. then went home bathe and went straight to church for y10 anniversary music prac.. rather enjoyed it.. but around the middle of the prac the headache starts to kick in.. then it lasted all night long.. throughout the whole 5pm music prac.. sorry if i appear to be angry or something..

still suck at drums and bass..

broke my brother's ipod earpiece.. oh great.. need to spend money again..

i still cant find the EasyWorship disc.. its something that cost 399USD.. oh great.. need to spend money yet again..

need to go church very early to do powerpoint slides tmr.. and order drinks for the tuanqi activities.. re-read some rules for the boardgames..

oh someone cheer me up pls..

2008-10-12T23:54:00.003+08:00

school starts in 9 hours time.. worried.. happy.. sian.. sad.. worried from hearing how tough the new sem is gonna be.. happy that im finally getting back to school and seeing everyone again.. sian that the morning train will once again be packed.. sad that a few good lecturers had left.. a variety of feelings huh..

im dying.. seriously.. from too much unhealthy food intake.. too much sugar.. treated family to 933 golden pillow yesterday night.. wen to celebrate friend's birthday at carnivore this afternoon.. hurting my already weak stomach.. bad bad.. gotta control already! eat less, save more.. recession! argh argh! exercise!

praying for God to tell me if i should continue helping the church part-time.. i dont really fancy it.. all the effort in trying to make everything work nicely and smoothly, trying my best to fulfill everyone's request.. why cant i do that if its within my ability and time? why do i have to follow law-by-law and everything jus screws up in the end..

im reading a book.. really hope that things can change after reading it..

hmm.. should i? should i? cant decide..

rather emo post again.. sigh.. when will this stop?

2008-10-07T02:08:00.002+08:00

yaoyong is bothered yet again.. hes not feeling happy yet again.. i hate it when he goes all emo and stuff.. jus feel like slapping him awake and telling him that he have no reason to be unhappy..

o.O

2008-10-03T01:35:00.008+08:00

last fri.. 26/9/2008.. i was rewarded with a treat of a lifetime! passes to the world's first Formula 1 night race and singapore's first Formula 1 race! grandstand seats! enough said! i really want to thank God for such an opportunity!

me posing at the gate for security checks etc.. excited excited lol

blur shot of the grandstand pass..

wanyi and me! it was her birthday tomorrow =)

me and zhongmin.. whats with the bright light behind.. zzz..

track shot 1.. its so bright!!

track shot 2.. still so bright!!

the video! enjoy the sound!

the turns =) nice sound again..

the people.. pumping tires..

cheese! prove of being one of the 1st to hear the engines roar in singapore ^^
my eyes looks kinda weird.. like ---> o.O

relatively close shot of the track..

taken at very close range.. hardly can see the car.. xD

hmm.. some big lamp in the middle of nowhere..

ladies and gentlemen, i bring u.. my new cars! look! im getting into it already..

but i seems to have more mood to drive the white one.. hmm.. tough choice..

ok well the uncle said he wanted to borrow my yellow one.. so i said ok..

so im like left with the white one only.. lolz..

ok gentlemen, start your engine! VROOOOM~!

well then after that.. we got bored after the first practice which is jus 1 hr.. and we decided not to watch anymore.. so we went to marina mandarin hotel and saw the lambos.. then went to marina square where we had our dinner at pizzahut! i mus say it was a nice surprise from the pizzahut crew side thanks =)

BTW ALL THE VIDEOS WERE TAKEN BY PEH WAN YI!!

2008-09-21T00:08:00.015+08:00

woots updating again!! lotsa pictures to post!! had busy days during these few days.. well.. i gonna copy beatbeat's style of putting all that happened on many days into one post =P

Thursday:

i went to Games Convention Asia 2008 (GCA) on thursday!! woo quite happening.. but not alot of people.. cos well its during the afterneoon on a thursday.. so definitely very little people.. walk around.. not alot of stuff to look.. lotsa online games displaying.. main attraction i guess will be nintendo wii.. i love it.. will definitely get it next time when i got the money.. and theres the game: rock band.. its basically those music rhythm game like DJmax.. but u get to play it on guitar, bass, drum or even sing! so cool and fun right!

Giant Wall.E!!

Wall.E and Eve =)

Random guy figure.. i took him cos i think he looks rather realistic..

And finally! last pic for the day.. my very first attempt at asking a girl for a photo.. woo.. was kinda shocked that they agree so readily.. but well hahax.. its rather fun to do it.. lolz.. and i know i look damn weird and ugly in the pic.. so cmon.. jus flame me if u wan =)

Friday:

today is sort of a big day.. radio interview! did the radio interview for my Marina Bay Street Circuit Project.. on 93.8 Live..

my Mediacorp visitor pass

ok i koped a free mineral water from their fridge.. its quite cute.. the bottle..

oh oh! and one of the staff who brought us to mediacorp was a part time newscaster.. and he brought us to walk around CNA.. who we saw suzanne jung!! woo.. she looks very very pretty in person.. and very tall too.. taller than me that is.. but wow.. she got the aura there..

Saturday:

woke up early in the morning.. cos went to GCA again.. this time for the conference.. listened to 2 speakers and then we got bored.. so we went up to the exhibition area.. cos i wanted to redeem my panda!!!

yesh!! i finally got it!! muahahah!

then we went around.. and saw many cosplayers there.. and yes! i saw thrall and arthas!! gosh.. these people such are really big fans.. i bet the costume is very expensive and takes alot of hardwork to make it.. and the coolest part is that when arthas went on stage for the cosplay competition, he had smoke coming out from him! think it should be dry ice.. but wow.. really nice effect lolz..

thrall.. i love the hammer

arthas.. nice sword too..

and.. introducing arthas's sword.. frostmourne! its the real thing! eh well not exactly cos a real one exist only in the game.. its a direct replica of the sword.. its super cool! cos its from Caesers.. cool la.. i wanna collect these kind of things when i got the money.. but its like super expensive.. $900+ for this sword u see here..

and i've come to the best part of the show!! booth babes! hahahax! well we were entitled to ask them for a free photo if we see one.. part of the booth babes competition.. and me and friends took pic with a few of them.. well one advise.. dont look at me la! jus look at the babes can liao.. =)

not bad.. i heard shes from nyp too lolz

my friends were shy to take pic with them

this is wan er.. the only one which i remember the name..

no comment.. ahahaha! oops..

this one got a very cute voice.. hahax

group photo! but very blur.. this one is the one i took pic with on thurs..

group photo yet again!

i think this is the best pic of the day.. and this girl isnt even in the booth babes competition..

another 2 whos not inside the booth babes competition.. but well.. they jus love to take pic dont they.. hahax..

and then.. im back to reality.. going there is like going into a fantasy gaming world.. and all that doesnt exist! at least not in my life.. and will never exist in my life.. its the rich man's world.. sigh..

2008-09-17T20:51:00.003+08:00

woots! im on newspaper and im gonna be on radio.. too bad no pics hah.. not bad im like getting quite some publicity.. to all my potential bosses: hire me!! cos of the marina bay street circuit simulator which i did for my inhouse attachment, im rewarded with a 早报 interview and going live on air on radio 93.8 Live for The Living Room chats..

well if you're wondering whats the big hoohaa about that.. its really nothing much.. i guess ppl dont even notice my name.. and ppl dont tune in to 93.8 at such a timeslot? but.. its really nice to experience for the first time how it is to get a newspaper and radio interview.. its kinda exciting.. at the same time scary.. im pretty scared about the interview on fri.. im scared that i dont know what to say and end up saying all 1-liners if i get too nervous.. haha.. mus remember! its a casual chat!

oh my oh my.. things are gonna get real busy.. henry's last day.. lotsa things to be done even before im feeling settled.. jus hope im up to it.. at least i hope God will help me through.. =)

and the devil mus be hating me for working at church that he made me go to the toilet many many times today.. until only water comes out >< disgusting.. and together with the ultimate sweating, im going towards dehydration.. but i thank God.. with this thing, i think i probably removed alot of 毒 in my body.. so yay!

2008-09-13T03:07:00.002+08:00

miracle today.. dark sky in the morning.. reach church at 10am and the moment i step into the church carpark, it rained.. thank God!

tired tired tired at work today.. keep wanna doze off.. oops.. but i guess church office isnt like school.. school is probably the place i doze off the most number of times..

end work and travelled to bishan.. cant get the $30 off adidas originals type de!! so im still without a pair of shoe now.. but i really like that shoe.. $105 man... ><

someone looks really nice today =P

2008-09-08T21:09:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM~!
I LOVE U MUM~!

not like my mum's gonna visit my blog.. hah.. but well.. who knows one day when she starts blogging.. she'll link me and read this ^^

hmm seems like the initial urge to start blogging again died already.. perhaps its cos my life is too boring to have anything to make me want to remember the day other than...... "morning wake up, brush teeth.. eat breakfast.. sit down in front of comp and rot.. lunch.. nap.. dinner.. tv.. sleep.." that would make all my blog entry 1-liners.. hahahx

well anyway.. today was the official offday from work.. so woke up at 10.. slack around.. sudden urge to play DotA.. -.- seriously -.- ok nvm.. about 12 i stopped (amazing! i can stop playing game!).. and i went to clean my table! wowowow! now now.. im super pleased with myself for cleaning up the WHOLE AFTERNOON! i actually threw away 2 plastic bag full of stuff that i didnt want or have no use for it.. and now my table is so empty and dust-free! ^^ well done yy! hah

ok that really took the whole afternoon.. then i went to the regular monday gym session at 6pm.. ALONE.. never felt so bad to be gymming alone.. went about the routine exercise.. couldnt avoid all the "mocking" stares i get from the big-biceps-monsters there.. sigh.. one day.. jus one day.. u'll see..

emo mode tonight.. hope the champagne later will cheer me up o.O

2008-08-29T23:35:00.004+08:00

oh my gosh!! thank God thank God thank God!! God jus gave me the best job.. today after music 9am music prac i went to find mushi to discuss about my job at church office.. and woooow.. the job is super good la!

firstly, he told me my job scope.. its to actually sort out the music scores and wordings according to 3 different type: by key, by hanyu pinyin, by number of words.. and amazingly, this is wad i suggested to zhiwei to do a few months back! so my job scope is something i can pretty much enjoy doing..

secondly, he told me that he doesnt want me to work for the whole day everyday.. and say that he doesnt want me to work on the weekends.. cos he wants me to enjoy my holidays.. and this is actually wad i wanted too! ^^

and somemore he wants me to start work at around 10am! yay can sleep till 9am then go!! and then i can knock off at 2-3pm.. which everyday around 4-5 hours only! whee! means i got time in the late afternoon! =)

in addition to that, he say if anyday i going out with friends or wad, i can jus take leave and go! this is the best right!

lastly, the pay is $5.50.. very decent for a relatively easy work.. which means finally got money liao! =D

all this.. mus really Thank God and Thank God! when i didnt get the job at school, i was like.. man.. such a good thing and i cant have it.. but wow.. this is even better than the school job la! jus the pay lesser lor.. =P but im not complaining =)

2008-08-21T02:17:00.006+08:00

my gosh! how can i even doubt God so many times? when again and again he actually helped me.. a miracle jus happened again.. well.. im the only one whos still awake now in the whole family.. and a cockroach fly into my house! its not the normal one.. its the kind that keeps flying and flying around non-stop.. so theres no way i can hit it or even have a direct hit at it with the insecticide.. so then i jus pray for it to go out by itself.. and after awhile the cockroach disappear behind the window.. so for a good 5min i couldnt find where it is.. then suddenly i heard noise outside the window.. and its actually the cockroach outside crashing into the window.. i was like super relieved man.. while others may think its luck.. i chose to believe its God's work =)

so here i am.. blogging immediately to record this down.. lolz.. its actually 2.20am now.. man.. i mus have been such a fool to keep complaining and whining about everything.. today, God showed me He Listens to our Prayers~! sorry to the people i keep complaining to.. i know its irritating and absolutely pissing to be reasoning with me and i think u all would wan to kill me on seeing my absurd stubborness.. but thanks alot for not doing it lolz =) before this entry, i actually written alot of complaining stuff in a text document and was thinking of posting it.. and one of the complaints i had was that why do i keep falling and become so faithless even though i keep praying for God to let me really believe in Him.. but i realise somehow, im actually becoming a person with more faith in God.. cant explain how or why i think its like this though..

so is this wad God had actually planned? to make me grow roots spiritually? maybe.. i hope i can stay this way.. like everyone else who could find joy and peace easily even though they're suffering so much..

Please Lord, let me find joy and peace in You even when things around me are so bad and that i can focus not on what i dont have or unsatisfied about, but instead on what i have and please actually show me what are the things you blessed me with so that i can realize it and not be fooled by the devil again.. In Jesus's Name, Amen.

2008-08-05T22:39:00.006+08:00

~holidays~

yay holidays in 2 weeks time! actually just 1 week 2 days =D cant wait! umm.. well not sure.. theres a tingle of dreading actually.. i dont really like holidays i think.. the only good point is that i get to sleep in in the morning.. other than that its kinda like rotting at home.. but i guess this holiday isnt gonna be all rotting at home kinda thing..

planning to go gym to workout everyday.. wowow.. no choice.. botak boy soon.. and also need to spend the time to work on my personal portfolio.. lemme see what i wanna do.. modelling of a phoenix, modelling of a car, modelling and rendering of interior design.. a few vfx stuff and i guess im satisfied =) hope i can do it ba.. or else it jus means i really suck at it.. 3 months of scripting kills..

but but.. with the schedule that i planned.. haiz.. no time to go and work.. how how.. i in serious serious need of money.. haiz.. needa buy shoe.. sigh.. nobody will ever believe how much i have left in my bank.. $22 only.. with the cash in my hands, close to $100 only.. "no money no honey" .. so true.. i jus dont understand why im that poor.. i dont go out club or drink or anything.. i only go shopping once a year (CNY).. i dont eat at places like swensens, jacks place etc.. so why?? where did all my money go?? argh..

so i pray to God.. if its in Your Will, let me find a good job this holiday, ideal place would be in my school working on cilent project.. pay is $10/hr and i will get to go gym and work on my portfolio at the same time.. and *poofs* the only chance to work there is gone even before the holidays started.. ok so not in God's Will.. so am i to start looking for a night job? and like dont sleep at all for 2 months? even the man wearing red underwear outside needs to sleep.. i guess for now i just have to see what is to come for me..

with no money, how to go travelling? i wanna go alaska! see the pic above! its soooo nice.. i wanna experience nature.. but wad to do? no money to even go sentosa..

2008-07-30T23:41:00.003+08:00

oh wow.. after jus one day, i may have the answers to why God isnt answering any of my prayers.. we're entering the post-modern era already and many signs of what the bible says which will happen when the end is near are slowly surfacing already.. natural disasters, man killing each other etc.. and 1 particular point is that at this time, the devil is gonna rise to full power.. decieving even the elects.. false prophets will surface.. very scary thought to me.. so the answer is that i guess God rather me not experience Him than being tricked by the devil into thinking that im actually experiencing God which actually is the devil speaking to me instead of God.. if thats the case im very thankful..

this is precisely what i was so scared of, and still am scared of.. that i put on my msn nick "very very scared".. the best lie is 99% truth and 1% lie.. this is precisely why we must be vigilant in these times and not fall.. so i guess for now, its more of bible reading, studying of God's words, constant reminding to myself of God's word and meditation on God's words that i need to do.. so that i can better protect myself in the face of false prophets trying to decieve me.. it doesnt matter if God is answering my prayers or not.. at the end of the day, i still need to fall back to the bible and stay faithfully to Him.. but i really pray that i can stay on the right way in these times of danger.. as i saw how scary and dangerous things can really go if we're unfamiliar with His words.. i have to stay strong and not get into the weakness state again..

very scared...

2008-07-29T23:37:00.002+08:00

hey um.. anyone got any remedy to stay awake? its very weird that i keep feel like sleeping.. why i dont have energy? even if i sleep early in the night, its still the same next morning.. argh.. im studying for physics test tomorrow.. >< cant afford to fail it.. or else i'll get kicked out of school..

im not happy.. nooo.. i want to be.. but its not happening.. no prayers are working.. beginning to doubt my strength to continue.. note its MY strength.. cos praying for strength from God isnt working.. at least i dont even feel the strength.. yup, goes back to "no prayers are working".. oh.. and i most probably sinned bad for saying all this stuff.. but.. oh well.. i've probably sinned too much anyway.. much like to a point of unforgiveable already..

kick the bad habit! kick the bad habit! comparing is a bad habit.. and i cant kick it..

many whys in my head.. gonna take a few hours to list them all.. so i guess i'll pass

i hate my negative self..

2008-07-23T00:43:00.002+08:00

Not the Man Worth Waiting For
Not a Christian

bold isnt it, my 2nd declaration.. however i shall write about the first one only.. well.. i was early for dao gao hui.. and during the freetime before it starts, i loitered around the church library and picked up the book "a man worth waiting for".. i picked it up, even though its for the ladies to read.. well, BIG mistake.. i not only discover i wasnt a man worth waiting for, i found out that im actually a man to look out for! so girls stay away from me cos im seriously a bad man..

2008-07-19T01:53:00.004+08:00

I'm singing for my Lord
Everywhere I go
Singing of His wondrous love
That the world may know

How He saved a wretch like me
By his death at calvary
I'm singing for my Lord
Everywhere I go

im looking for this song! send me if u have it! i suddenly keep singing this song lolz.. anyway the new Stream of Praise album rocks!! love track 3 especially.. ^^

actually i dunno wad to blog about also..

i shall not whine, i shall not complain.. i shall not whine, i shall not complain.. i shall not whine, i shall not complain.. i shall not whine, i shall not complain.. i shall not whine, i shall not complain.. hmm maybe.. if i whine or complain again i have to treat everyone to something.. or if i whine or complain again everyone have to give me a slap..

I SHALL NOT WHINE, I SHALL NOT COMPLAIN!!

2008-07-18T00:35:00.002+08:00

He is in Control

peace at heart at last? maybe.. but one thing for sure.. God placed the Stream of Praise World Tour Concert right at the time where im very down.. believe it or not, alot of things said there are answers that i needed from Him.. so it is really God's answer? *shrugs*

but well, the Stream of Praise Team did a really good job.. the atomsphere is very good.. i wonder if our church will be able to achieve that someday? i pray that it would.. been picturing how my ideal songs and praise time would be like.. but of course its MY concept.. not God's.. so hafta let Him do the organising..

back to the Stream of Praise thing.. well i think the musicians are good! very nice skills they got.. *envy*.. hmm envying isnt a good thing but jus cant help it.. wish i can be like them.. having the talents and gifts granted by God to serve Him.. sigh.. i've got no talent or gift.. dunno how to talk, dunno how to play music.. man.. how could i serve Him better seriously? how can i do more things to serve Him?

ok i shall not go on and on non stop.. probably very boring stuff to read the same thing again and again in all my posts.. its 12.45am already.. im very very tired.. but happy to be tired cos of doing things to serve Him.. yes! peace at last! Thank You Lord!

2008-07-15T01:01:00.002+08:00

7am
3 big pimple on my face
bad stomach
hair wont stay the way i want
late for school
sweat like nobody's business
stink like nobody's business
cant find solution to project
no productivity at work
no time to gym in evening
bus trip to ttc (which i so hate)
bus trip back home (which i so hate again)
hungry
11pm

can i complain to God? nah.. i cant.. Hes probably testing my faith blah blah blah.. time is not right blah blah blah.. i should trust that God will make a way for me blah blah blah..

sometimes i think my faith can no longer withstand it.. thats probably how deep my faith is only.. yet i'll never want to leave God, cos i believe i'll be worse off than that if i ever leave Him.. so what to do? wad does He want from me? wad is it that im doing so wrong? why is it that i have to try very hard and still doesnt experience Him while others experience Him so easily? why is it that i tried so hard to do what i think He wants but somehow i think He isnt happy?

sigh...

2008-07-13T03:00:00.001+08:00

oh my oh my.. i really cant do it right.. nothing that i can do right.. i shouldnt have existed..

2008-07-11T03:12:00.002+08:00

woots! its 3.13am now.. and im at school comp lab! lolz.. stayed overnight in school to do some work.. ahahahz.. its actually kinda fun at first but after awhile it got kinda boring.. so here i am blogging..

hmm first thing to say is that the night scene of the school is very very scary.. kinda like in resident evil where everyone in the school became zombie and then left us only.. hope i wont need to go to the toilet before dawn.. scary leh.. but then again good training for army lolz..

oh man oh man.. staying back might not be such a good idea afterall.. my work has no progress.. cos partly i dont know how to do.. im actually pretty awake now! =P jus.. dont know how to do.. i guess my biological block is all messed up.. how can i be so awake in the night and keep dozing off in the day? weird.. but i remember my sec sch form teacher said this is due to some illness one.. oh no.. ><

oh well anyway went for thursday sharing session jus now.. but so little ppl went today.. hahax but had fun all the same.. get to see my starbucks girl.. which i keep getting teased about.. oh my gosh.. but well i "blurted" out what i have been feeling bad for quite sometime during the session.. and was glad that i got some explanation and concepts that sort of relaxed me abit on the issue.. so is this God's ans to my question? yea probably.. its weird that some ppl can take joy in Jesus so easily but somehow i cant.. why why?? its so weird.. is it something wrong with me?? hmm.. maybe i guess.. and i might jus know the ans..

oh yea, my friend said a theory today which is kinda true i think.. "if the guy got no looks and no money, but the girl stay with him faithfully through army, then its true love".. well which is part of the reason why i prefer to wait till after army ba.. but well who knows.. love can come anytime anywhere.. especially on the streets (chiobu walk past).. nah jus kidding lolz..

well i've been wondering if my "keep-looking-at-chiobu" syndrome has any effect on my image at all? i wouldnt want to be branded like "pervertic" at all.. nono.. i want a clean reputation.. but sadly i think i wont have that image anymore.. so.. hmm.. so jus live with it! rather be looking at girls than looking at guys.. -.- not looking at girls will be an insult to them ahahaa! girls wants ppl to look at them right right? yes im right!

im really bored now.. no progress.. nothing to do.. maybe i should jus go play some game.. =P *wondering where to go for dinner tmr already* lolz

2008-07-05T23:41:00.002+08:00

www.worldvision.org.sg/

world vision, wow a christian organisation who goes to 3rd world countries to help them build up their communities.. im thoroughly impressed.. child sponsorship.. cool.. wish i got enough money to sponsor one child now.. i'll definitely sponsor a few children depending on my salary next time.. now seriously i can see how lucky i am already and i should not whine and complain so much..

i can see why God didnt bless me with the things i want now.. for example, not being rich.. im very thankful that i wasnt born into a rich family.. i'll probably become a spoilt kid now.. i soooo hate rich and spoilt kids.. the prince/princess illness.. so irks me.. saw the talk show on chn 8 yesterday and youngsters nowadays are spending so much on shopping! gosh.. if the $500 spent per month on shopping is used for child sponsorship, think of how many children who can be sponsored! i guess im very extreme on this.. probably alot of ppl will hate me for this.. hah.. but i dont really care.. =X

and also im thankful that im not gifted or talented at anything.. cos i think if i am i'll probably be super proud and arrogant now.. not a hot and popular guy, or else i'll probably be playboy and flirting around now.. so i guess this is God's big plan for me.. by not giving me things, Hes actually saving me from sinning much much more..

........... im blessed to be not blessed with things which i thought were gifts ...........

2008-07-03T23:58:00.002+08:00

你们祷告，无论求什么，只要信，就必得着。
马太福音 21:22

verse of the day from my bible reading ^^ sounds too good to be true? lolz.. abit.. but mus believe! mus train myself to believe! mus train myself to believe that even though i dont get now, i might get it in the future! ^^ lamborghini here i come~! but what i really need now is a big sized shoe which i like.. no money and no time to go buy.. my current one is already wearing off to the bare minimum.. zzz.. and can i have the starbucks girl's number pls? hahahaha.. my gosh.. im really seriously sick in this.. lolz.. well God probably know that if im popular with girls i'll probably become a playboy aka player.. thats why He doesnt give me any.. hah.. nice consolation..

fyp work finally can say completed even though theres still 6 more weeks to go.. i dunno what we gonna do for the rest of the 6 weeks.. well completed yes.. but like only 10% of it is my work.. sad.. scripting rocks but i dont like it.. how.. what can i do..

gym day today.. im in serious need of exercise.. nearly puked after running.. >< and gymming has a serious impact on me.. u know.. looking at all the guys pumping with all the weights there.. sad.. the only consolation i can find is that those guys were in my shoe last time too.. haix..

rushed to sharing session after that.. yyds couldnt make it so ended up with me, vince, xy, beat.. a few good questions for today.. i shall only some lol..
"if i can visit a country for free, which one would it be and why".. Vienna~! heard many ppl say its nice there so thought of there.. ^^
"3 words to describe myself".. bad evil emotional.. lolol.. bad guys rules~! *dont care what beatbeat says*
"what is 1 area i can improve on".. well after vince drew a square over his stomach, i drew a square over my whole body hahahah.. yup im in serious need of a make over like what beatbeat says.. but what? lol.. going to gym already for a start..

"share an encounter".. got more to write on this one.. well vince and beatbeat all shared scary experiences with evil spirits.. which made my hair stand.. really.. for more info can go find them.. well, now i think back, i think im actually very lucky to not have met with all these stuff.. and im very thankful to God for that.. cos i'll probably freaked out if i ever meet with one.. and who knows what stupid things i'll do.. so i pray that i'll never ever meet with them.. especially during army which is starting in 1 years time.. ><

enough of the sharing session.. oh but but i really enjoyed the sharing sessions.. hah.. ok dunno what else to say liao.. cheer up yy~! oops why am i talking to myself.. ><

2008-06-30T21:20:00.002+08:00

Lamborghini LP560-4 woots isnt it such a beauty..

For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future - God
Jeremiah 29:11

wow i wonder if God is gonna give me a lamborghini? lolz.. nah jus kidding of course He wont.. hahax well sometimes i wonder if the things i ask for is too much? yea probably too much i guess.. so isit right to jus "try try" see if God will really give me? hah.. funny question =P but yea been asking myself that question, and pondering why does God want me to wait for everything that i ask for, or even dont give me.. i guess everything i ask for is harmful to me.. yea thats probably it =) questions answered!! woot! oh and probably i should be more thankful for what i HAVE and not sulking at what i DONT HAVE.. funny how human being thinks.. never appreciating what we have and complaining on what we dont have.. *shrugs*

busy days starts today.. monday: gym day.. tuesday: dao gao hui.. wednesday: cdcm course.. thursday: weekly sharing session.. friday: y10 music prac.. sat: tuanqi+5pm music prac.. sunday: y10 + 5pm service.. woots and all that is on top of weekdays 9am-6pm in school everyday to do scripting.. wow.. what can i say hahaha.. enough said..

2008-06-25T20:54:00.002+08:00

51% - 49% !!!!!! muahahah i dont care! well if anyone is wondering what the 2 numbers are for.. its how true my previous post is.. and of course 51% is true and 49% is not.. why such close number? hah i had to hand it to beatbeat the master.. initial stats was at 80% - 20% and surprising i actually lost till 51% - 49%.. but im not gonna to give up that 1%!!!

i dont think im gonna blog about the long long discussion we had last night.. cos.. i dont remember anything now! =P STM sorry.. but yeah agreed its mostly case to case basis as some girls really differ from another.. but hey! i was jus saying about the majority!! >:( thus the remaining 1%.. im standing firm on my ground on that!

shant say anymore on that or else beatbeat is gonna kill me xD well.. im tired.. haha.. went to the gym just now muahah dont believe im so healthy one right? =P no la cos army coming liao.. and im like super super weak now.. run for 5mins already cannot make it.. so.. im probably gonna go to the gym everyday from now on.. wish me luck in becoming some hunks (like those guys pumping in the gym and making me feel emo about myself..)

oh.. wow i suddenly wanted to write this down.. it actually feels good to be blogging again.. dunno why but its extremely shiok to like keep on typing what i wanna say xP

ohoh and and im in love with Offering by Paul Baloche! its so nice! shall go find the mp3 or gonna find it on imeem and link it to my blog ^^

The sun cannot compare to the glory of Your love
There is no shadow in Your Presence
No mortal man would dare to stand before Your throne
Before the Holy One of heaven
It's only by Your Blood and it's only through you mercy
Lord I come

I bring an offering of worship to my King
No one on earth deserves the praises that I sing
Jesus may You receive the honor that You're due
O Lord I bring an offering to You
I bring an offering to You

I bring an offering of worship to my King
No one on earth deserves the praises that I sing
Jesus may You receive the honor that You're due
O Lord I bring an offering to You
O Lord I bring an offering to You
O Lord I bring an offering to You
I bring an offering to You

2008-06-23T00:47:00.002+08:00

ok to all who got go the starbucks session, im officially not the good guy anymore.. why? read this:

Are you a nice guy who has always wondered why the cocky guy -- the one who barely appears interested in the girl -- is usually the one who gets the girl?

Have you suffered from hearing the words, "You're a really nice guy, but I only like you as a friend," from a woman who you would do (or may, in fact, have already done) just about anything and everything for -- only to turn around and watch her date (or even chase) a guy who treats her like she's nothing special? And are you stumped wondering why she would date a guy who treats her like that when she could have you who would treat her like a princess and give her everything she wants? Well, you better brace yourself because I'm going to tell you a couple of secrets that you might not want to hear.

First, "nice" equates with boring and predictable. Look up "nice" in the dictionary and you find: pleasant; agreeable; satisfactory. In other words, average -- not exceptional, not exciting, and not sexy.I'll bet you've never heard a woman say she didn't want to date a guy because he was too confident, too passionate, or too exciting -- have you? But, I'll bet you have heard women say things like, "He's such a nice guy. He's so sweet and he's always there for me, but I only like him as a friend." Or, "He's such a good guy -- kind, thoughtful, generous, honest, loyal -- but there's no chemistry. He just doesn't turn me on." Sadly, I hear it all the time. The fact is, Mr. Nice Guy, you cannot bore a woman into feeling attracted to you or into wanting to date you. And as obvious as that sounds, if you are one of those guys I described that is exactly what you are trying to do. And it won't work.

Please understand that I am not suggesting that you mistreat women or disrespect them in any way. What I suggesting is that you value and respect yourself more.

To illustrate what I mean: The answer to the question, "Why does the guy who doesn't appear to care as much about the girl get the girl?" is simple: The nice guy cares too much, too soon. He has made the woman too important and too valuable and it shows in everything he says and does. He is too available, too eager to please, too accommodating, and he gives too much -- all without getting anything in return. By doing so, he has made himself appear desperate, insecure, needy of this woman's attention, affection, and approval -- and he has stripped himself of any value in her eyes. After all, if he's already doing and giving everything, without her doing or giving anything - why would she value him? She won't. She is not going to value him any more than he values himself. What she is going to do is look for someone else, someone who she perceives as being more worthy, more confident, and more valuable.

It works like this: Once you need something, or you want it too badly, you forfeit your strength and lose all power of negotiation. You are in a position of weakness and you are perceived as weak. Someone (or something) else is in control of you, the situation, and it's outcome. Men in this situation appear to be anything but confident, strong, and exciting. More, they are perceived as being unworthy and as lacking value.

Translation: Things that are easily acquired, obtained, or maintained, without any effort or sacrifice, lack value... it's human nature.

The secret to why the cocky guy wins with women, over the nice guy, is that he is perceived as being a stronger, more confident guy with more value. How? He never invests everything -- his entire being, ego, and self-worth in what one woman's response or reaction to him is. He doesn't gush with compliments; he isn't always available; he doesn't give too much; and he knows he isn't going to die if a woman says "no" to him. More, his attitude is, yeah, I'd like to go out with you, but if I can't, that's OK -- I'm a busy guy, with exciting things going on, and lots of other options.

2008-06-21T21:34:00.002+08:00

woo! wow look at my previous post and this post.. more than a year! thats how long my blog was dead.. =p but hey it resurrected! muahahah! well i dont know what made me want to blog again leh.. guess i jus wanna record down stuff cos nowadays very busy and tired to even remember stuff.. so.. i guess thats just it =)

~hApPy?~

2007-01-09T22:56:00.000+08:00

yay! im happy! my laptop finally is back.. after 2 weeks+.. heheh.. finally can blog loh.. was so bored during the 2 weeks.. but hey the 2 weeks didnt wen by fruitlessly.. i decided to brush up my guitar skills and i managed to learn a few more chords =X hahax as if a few more is anyting great.. yeah its true.. im a slow learner.. sadz..

i dunno wad else to write.. so sianx.. got sian feeling.. but dunno why.. tmr my lesson cancelled.. yay.. =S im feeling weird.. oh who carez.. im jux gonna get the life i wan.. and it takes time =) but i wil get it.. ^^

~sAd DaYs~

2006-12-19T20:44:00.000+08:00

haix its sad days.. and the rain is making me more sad.. haix.. well the only ting dats making me sad is dat my external harddisk died today.. super sian diao la.. suddenly spoil for no reason.. ARGH.. y cant anyting go smooth for me.. zzz.. how i wish sumting dat i do, just one ting wil do, wil go smoothly frm start to end..

now all my stuff inside the harddisk gone.. shit la.. all my sch stuff.. all my passwords and login IDs.. all my mp3s.. all my videos.. all my pictures.. shit la shit it.. tis sucks.. life sux.. fuk off

~nO LiFeR~

2006-12-10T01:24:00.000+08:00

yea.. the title of tis post is me.. the no lifer.. i realized i got no life seriously.. my mum jus stated dat fact today.. indirectly.. she asked me in 1 day how many hours have i moved.. wow dat question stunned me.. yea its the fact.. more den 18hrs im actually sitting at the same spot in 1 whole day.. in front of the comp of course.. other den eat, sleep, toilet, drink water, im practically glued to the seat in front of my comp.. haix.. well i hafta admit tis is really starting to affect me.. well firstly, im growing fatter and fatter.. =S .. secondly my backbone is getting rather not straight.. argh.. lastly, i realized my eyes getting sensitive to brightness.. abit of brightness and i cant tahan.. haix.. tis is bad.. and summore no exercise la.. haix..

anw.. i feel dat its time to really change my whole life.. "da gai ge" aka big change.. lolx.. well lets see.. i better plan now.. hmm.. ok here goes.. i guess i wil start with sleeping early.. (oops its 1am now..) sleeping early everyday wil be a great start.. den i wil go exercise on wed, thurs, fri, sat, sun.. since they are all afternoon lessons on those 3 days.. sleep early = can wake up early = got time to exercise.. muahaha good plan.. ok next i need to shift my laptop to sumwhere where i can sit straight in a chair one.. den.. ok every 1hr of comp usage i rest my eyes, go walk ard my house and drink sum water.. oh ya! most importantly i muz start to eat and drink healthy.. no more cold stuff.. its bad for my stomach.. eat more veggie.. lolx.. =X ok i tink dats all for now..

ok a rather big plan to change my life.. now i guess i need to make another change to my life.. lik in the area of studies.. need to really buck up now.. ok no more gaming for now.. concentrate on studies!! so many tings i dun understand la.. den nobody to ask.. so need to go find books.. den after find books muz read or put at home oso rot..

hmm a rather long entry i guess.. i realized i blogging more often now.. and i dun even know y.. hmm.. ok i tink dats all its 1.30am now.. need to go sleep.. CHEERS to my plan!! may i succeed in carrying out my plan.. ahahahx =P pls support me every1.. see me online after 11pm jux shoo me off to bed aahah.. =)

~SiAnZ~

2006-12-08T20:27:00.000+08:00

haiyo so busy.. so many assignments to complete.. lol sian diao.. so hard to do summore the assignment.. but hey 1 more week of hardwork and its holidays! ahahx! cant wait for it although its only 2 weeks but its enuff lol..

anw i cant wait for next year march!! lets see.. next year march i can change my upgrade my internet connection, i can upgrade my hp line and its my birthday! yay cant wait for 18 years old.. 18years old very good.. can do so many tings.. lol.. but sumhow its so scary.. lik 18years of my life is gone.. time fly so fast.. argh.. i dun wanna grow up.. =(

im so bored now la.. talked to me in msn! anytime oso can! lol as i said im suffering frm "Refusal to Start on Assignment Syndrome".. its a incurable ting la.. lol.. =P

~MiXeD tHoUgHtS~

2006-12-03T00:57:00.000+08:00

ahahx okok *blow away cobwebs*.. blogging now while watching guess show.. woo no.4 Akina is such a cute girl =) jux perfect ahahahx =P anw, my fren wen sitex2006 and saw xiaobing sia! argh im jealous! FYI xiaobing is a hei she hui mei mei.. frm taiwan she come sg study.. argh.. so good.. i shld hav wen la.. they dragged me go but i dun wan go cos at expo very far mah.. sianx..

hmm.. happy thoughts aside, sumting happened yest dat made me reflect on my life larz.. i was just tinking if my whole life is lik a big exam, i tink i wil fail terribly.. i tink i really fail as a person, as a friend, as a student, as a son, as a brother, as a christian, as a gamer.. hmm i dunno i got wad other roles in life.. jux.. simply i fail in all these roles bah.. shall not elaborate on each roles lol.. =X but i guess 17 years of life.. shld be only Term 1.. so i got 3 more Terms to pull up grades up.. ahahx i guess i better buck up now.. if not i die as a failure.. =(

mOrE mEmOrIeS

2006-11-26T23:33:00.000+08:00

lol 2 weeks ago i was reminiscening my sec life.. today i was tinking back my pri sch life! lol.. can u believe it.. pri sch days though i cant remember much abit it but i guess it wasnt dat great frm pri 3 onwards lol.. oh yea i had a great life during pri 1 and 2.. shant elaborate..

oh yea! a few days back my family brought out a casette tape.. inside was all my recordings of me singing nursery songs.. LOL so i guess we are going back to my nursery and kindergarden life now LMAO! anw my kindergarden teacher teaches us san zi jing.. "ren zhi chu, xing ben shan......" lol u know wad im saying.. those were the days man.. small kid cant do anyting.. hehehx..

its sunday night now.. in 27mins time its gonna be another week.. monday.. haix.. monday blues already even b4 monday is here.. sian days ahead.. sch work.. so hard.. and stil slacking.. i dunno how to help myself liao lol..

go sleep liao bb.. zzzZZZZ....

mEmOrIeS

2006-11-11T00:02:00.000+08:00

i tink only qing visits and read my blog now.. lolx =) hi qing ^^ if u r reading tis, jux wanna tell u i miss u lots =P ahh i miss those sec sch days!

lolx.. cant believe it.. i was so bored yest and i wen google "ongyaoyong" and it gave me my old xanga blog! LOL! i tink i hav completely 4gotten abt it liao.. anw, read some of the post la.. bring back great memories! the happy times in sec 3 and 4.. was really happy back den.. lotsa frenz and stuff had lotsa fun..

well of course got bad tings too la.. now reading my past, i realized i really very pessimistic lik every1 said.. and my thoughts lik very naive lidat.. lol.. and also flaming ppl in my blog.. lol.. quite sad la i realized my sec sch wen past lik a total waste.. how i wish i can relive those 4 years again.. i gonna live it fruitfully.. but its too late to regret anw..

sAd DaYz

2006-11-08T20:49:00.000+08:00

ahh.. i cant help but feel sad and sianed again.. i would really love my life to be gone peacefully.. at least no bad part.. but dats impossible.. I LOST MY THUMBDRIVE!! haix sad.. y tings lik tis always happen to me? its a 1GB imation thumbdrive loh.. all my sch stuff inside! and i lost it all in 1 afternoon.. how bad can tings get? and summore i totally broke now.. no money buy new one.. i sent mass email to ppl in sch.. hope dat person who took it can return me.. i pray hard.. =(

ehh.. haix.. i cant help but feel angry over my slackness.. everytime i tell myself dun slack anymore but it doesnt help.. lolx.. got any ideas for motivation pls tell me.. =) sian loh.. tings r getting so hard at sch.. so many tings to learn la.. xhtml, c++, openGL, Cygwin(Linux), maths.. argh.. stop tis.. =( at tis rate how to go CMU? how to get my job at ILM? lik mama chong last time always say: cant even smell it let alone go dere.. bulls eye.. dead right..

anw.. today after sch go home at yishun mrt station got a girl selling pens for charity.. $5 for 1 pen!! lousy pen summore lol.. and she is those type dun give up one.. i hate tis type.. lol.. anw she is pretty but selling tings for charity? commission based.. i dun lik dat.. charity shld not be after for gains..

oh wells.. todays all moody cos of my lost thumbdrive.. i really really hope i can get back my thumbdrive..

blogging... again?

2006-10-23T21:20:00.000+08:00

LOL i cant believe im actually writing a blog entry! dats after more than a year of tis dead blog.. well probably no one visits liao.. so basically jux crapping ard here.. actually cos im learning xhtml in sch now so came to see the template again to refresh my memory lol..

anyway if anyone happen to pass by tis blog again pls tag.. lol and thankx for passing by.. and also i removed the stupid music link which doesnt even work anymore.. hope it reduces the loading time.. =X i know the loading time is long i get fed up myself sometime.. heheh..

anw well.. i duno if im really coming back to blog.. jux feel kinda cool to be blogging once again.. =)

haix... sianx..

2005-06-11T20:36:00.000+08:00

really sianx.. my fone software got prob.. go nokia den change software.. den all my msg, calendar notes and contacts all gone.. pain sia.. haix.. nvm..

so i need all your contacts, burfdays.. thankx.. really appreciate ur help.. i only left wif sim contacts which are very old already.. so yar.. plz..

o.0

2005-06-09T20:31:00.000+08:00

gonna blog.. hmm.. 2 weeks into the holx liaox.. wad haf i done? nth i guess.. 1st week is remedial.. didnt do anyting more for dat week.. considered slack.. den tis week.. monday wen for syfc[singapore youth for christ].. sum bible seminar.. den tues studied, did my geog.. thought not alot..

yest, was 2/4 outing.. pix r at yvonne's blog.. www.yv0nnelim.blogspot.com.. go dere see.. got details dere oso.. i lazy to write.. but it was a fun day la.. relaxing.. great.. but now gotta chiong hmwk.. anw yvonne left out the play pool part.. after steamboat we played alot of game of pool.. and i tink i hooked on pool liaox.. hahax.. gotta play more often.. die la.. totally broke liaox.. so many expenses.. dota, pool, pay debts.. how to survive? haix..

kkx.. gtg liaox.. promised i wun stay online for long.. gotta really CONTROL myself.. stop me frm going online ppl.. but i go online frm fone jiu nvm.. comp is bad..

~feeling weak~

2005-05-18T19:58:00.000+08:00

yea.. feeling weak man.. dun feel lik doing anyting sia.. very tired.. tired of everyting.. tired of life.. dun tink i haf done well in tis term test.. as usual.. sian la.. dun wan to sae liaox.. damn sick of it liaox.. after every term i get tis kind of shit.. izzit my fault? dunno.. dun care.. anyway, im getting increasingly frustrated wif my family.. start to hate dem sia.. shant elaborate.. tis way im getting farked up already.. its lik everyday i only go sch and go home.. and tis 2 place r the place i hate most.. so how? guess if tis goes on i can go mad.. hahax.. go mad good ar.. dunno wads happening anymore.. wahahax.. damn sianx la.. dunno wad to do liaox.. go die? crazy ar.. im stil young manx..

anyway found out dat innova jc haf youth flying club.. so im definitely heading dere.. die die oso muz go dere.. at least i haf a goal now..

~new blog skin~

2005-05-14T23:56:00.000+08:00

hey i found a very cute blogskin.. hope its not the same as any1's.. dun wan ppl to sae i copy dem.. anyway the person in the comic is nigel.. which is not me.. if can change the persons name den very good.. hahax.. but aww.. too bad.. hmm..

jux realized lik very long neva blog.. suddenly jux feel lik changing blogskin.. den after changing den jux feel lik writing.. yea.. nth much lately.. actually alot of tings i can sae.. but shant sae anyting bah.. lengthy.. jux no mood to write bah.. lifes not good..

2005-04-15T22:49:00.000+08:00

wah i very very tired now.. cant even type properly.. cant keep my eyes open.. hahax.. i going to sleep after i updated..

had a very lousy week.. firstly, there was 3 tests: emaths, amaths, chem.. all of which i suck at.. actually i suck at all subjects la.. jux dat these 3 r the more sucky one.. so dere it goes again, i gonna fail the test.. sianx.. cant stop failing.. mr tan and mrs chong are gonna kill me.. and i hafta pay the heavy fines.. secondly, had napfa test todae.. as usual la.. cant stop failing.. failed SBJ and pull ups.. sianx la.. dun wan talk abt it.. den after sch go play bball den play lik shit liddat wen tmr haf the april games.. stupid la.. liddat sure lose.. haix.. wad m i good at manz.. nth! crap la.. studies=sux, napfa=sux, bball=sux.. sianx la.. thirdly, im broke for the week and next week already.. ppl burfdaes, etc etc.. die la.. heavily in debts.. next week i no need to eat liaox.. i calculated already dat all my next weeks pocket money jux nice to pay off all debts.. so need need to eat liaox.. hmm..

aiya dun wan sae liaox.. im outta my minds already.. going siao.. byex =)

2005-04-08T18:39:00.000+08:00

i really feel lik changing my blog skin sia.. its so damn ugly.. all my fault.. go create such a lousy template.. but i cant find a nice one on blogskin sia.. nvm.. slowly find.. anyway i cant use the comp for too long to find the template.. gotta go revise, study or wadeva la.. very sian liaox.. everyday mrs chong wil keep talking abt me.. damn sian already.. damn tired of my farking life.. live each day lik shit liddat.. crap shit.. school/home/church, its de same blardy ting.. school everyday oso same.. cant stand it liaox.. keep failing test and wadeva la.. cant improve=get shit frm teachers.. wtf is wrong wif me la.. home oso everyday same.. lik living thru the same day over and over again.. haix.. got 1 time my dad sort of caught me watching soccer in the middle of the nite.. and wtf he scolded me saying "other than soccer and computer u do nth else.. blah blah blah.." wtf.. how many times haf i watch soccer la.. dun even haf scv can only watch champions league lor.. which is lik only once every fortnight or wad.. den i reduce my time on comp liao lor.. i see my dad less than 1 hr everyday and how can he sae dat lor.. wtf.. its liddat de.. ppl dun see u try to put an effort de.. mrs chong, my dad.. its the same.. blardy farking ting.. everywhere i go is the same.. ppl either cant be bothered wif me, or they tink i sux.. well i tink i do.. in fact worse.. wadeva la.. heck care.. church, well i shant sae much.. but its lik im being forced to do tings wif i dun lik.. nvm abt dat.. well, im darn not happy wif my life.. farking life.. next week is napfa test and i know it wil be same ting.. every year the same.. well dats my fault actually.. but its lik how come i cant haf anyting dat is inborn.. some talent.. any talent oso can.. haix.. my birth is simply a mistake.. fark..

oh ya.. todae im damn pissed off wif the uncle of the cd shop.. he sae f.i.r cd come at ard 4+ den 5+ stil haven come.. den i go home liaox.. den 5mins after i left the cd came.. wtf lor.. i waited 1hr plus stil neva get it.. fark.. every1 plz dun buy his cd.. his cd STALL is beside the s11 kopitiam.. small stall only.. wahaha..

2005-04-02T22:12:00.000+08:00

hmm.. decided to come blog.. hahax.. well.. todae i wen to watch house of fury wif zhiwen, jingyong, ivan, jianyang, kaiqing, yongyong, daniel.. sort of celebrate jingyong and zhiwen burfday.. and my belated de.. hahax.. thankx to all of dem cos they treated me to the movie.. =) anyway house of fury really damn nice.. gillian chung of twins very chio lor.. super chio.. hahax.. starting to lik dem liaox.. anyway their songs oso not bad mah.. so yup.. mayb i go buy their album.. wah got so much tings to buy.. let me tink.. Twins, BoA, F.I.R, Cyndi.. wah a total of 4.. broke liaox.. really damn broke.. gotta start saving..

oh ya.. miss singapore was shown jux now.. omg.. i tink singapore facing CBC [chio-bu crisis].. hahax.. act no la.. its jux dat those chio de dun wan go join.. but i stil tink the lorraine lai not bad.. but too bad she didnt win.. anyway miss singapore not only muz chio but good personality, rite? aiya who cares la.. who win oso doesnt concern me anyway..

hmm.. oh ya.. the JC 1st 3 mths is back.. sucks sucks.. MOE sux.. come up wif tis den go back.. wth lor.. den now hafta pia for prelims liaox.. haix.. so damn sian.. feeling damn stress.. lik totally no energy liaox.. i gonna die soon manz.. at least i hope.. haix.. dis few days feeling damn bad.. yup even on my burfday.. its the worse burfday i ever had.. feeling damn moody.. =X

2005-03-14T18:01:00.000+08:00

hmm.. im here to blog.. very de sian.. holx start le.. first day.. nth much lor.. neva study.. morning til noon i play comp.. afternoon i help my dad do the plumbering.. yucks.. so dirty lor the pipes.. haha.. but i learn how to do all those plumbering stuff liaox.. not bad.. at least i neva waste my whole day in front of the computer.. anyway.. gotta remind myself dat i shldnt use the comp too long.. in case spoil my eyesight.. haha.. i stil need my eyesight to work in the future.. =P oh ya.. i gotta get my own car at age 21-23 liddat.. and i going to get the Hyundai Tuscani Cabriolet.. wahaha.. cool car.. now i haf tis big goal.. i gonna save up lik crazy.. lolx.. =)

2005-03-03T17:10:00.000+08:00

tats it.. tis is the limit.. the finale.. i now feel lik im right under the guillotine.. and dat the blade could come down on my head any moment.. haix.. tis is getting more depressing.. i dun wan to tink anymore.. its so mind torturing.. it drains off the mind.. IM GOING NUTS!! i cant stand it anymore.. cant breathe or wadeva shit.. i dun gif a shit abit it.. WAD IS THE DAMN PROBLEM WITH ME!! ARG!!!
haix.. i dunno wad to sae liaox.. its jux so.. arg.. haix.. wad to do wad to do.. ARG!! IM REALLY GOING CRAZY!! gosh.. jux let me die! im so worthless.. even a piece of shit has more value than me.. i wish i can die rite now.. i dun wanna suicide.. plz let me get into an accident and die.. even tonite oso can.. anytime.. rite now.. how i wish tis was my last words to everyone.. arg crap.. dun wanna sae anymore..

2005-03-01T18:57:00.000+08:00

hmm.. decided to come update.. lately nobody come blogging le.. at least mayb is cos i neva visit other ppl's blog bah.. oops..
anyway, life hasnt been good lately.. it simply jux gets worse and worse.. one bad ting after another.. haix.. first was my hand.. damn.. when wil it ever recover.. it seems betta already cos i removed the bandaged but i stil get that inability to bend my ring finger.. the pain is excuriating.. guess the bone really broke or wadeva crap.. and what izzit lik to be going to sch everyday and u can hardly write.. all those notes and stuff jux flew past me day by day.. and i keep lagging behind..
den came the chem test todae.. i failed.. nothing surprising.. guess if i pass, that is really surprising.. haix.. wen can i ever pass a test.. time and again i feel so demoralized.. lik my soul is drained out from my body everyting i get back a test results.. it gets so worse til i already felt very numb and cold.. lik walking down during a winter and the ice beneath ur feet jux broke and u feel into the icy cold water.. and within minutes u jux freeze and die.. it jux feel that way.. how i wish sumone wil rescue me before i die.. but in the world now where every1 is so busy, ppl hardly notice u.. let alone notice u.. let alone notice u r dying.. i noe its all up to me to bring myself up from the waters and warmed myself.. but the ice is so slippery, u can hardly get a grip to pull urself up.. help is alwaes needed..
anyway, i can feel it.. my life is jux lik a prolonged scenario of the ice ting.. dats it.. to give up or not.. thats the question.. i really dun wan to tink anymore.. let fate warp mi into God noes where.. wadeva..

2005-02-19T19:34:00.000+08:00

hey mi finally came to update.. well.. changed my blog.. erm.. nt really la.. jux changed the background and a few tings here and dere.. haha.. skipped all those javascript stuff and fonts, colours etc stuff.. haha.. easier.. the background is a pic i recieve via a forwarded email.. quite nice rite.. haha.. anyway i stil haf a few probs lik getting the blog title to show, and the font size of sum words.. and im looking for a nice poem or wad to put in.. any1 noe of nice ones can tell me.. so wad u ppl tink? gimme comments..

update

2005-01-27T20:40:00.000+08:00

hey.. came to update.. im not supposed to use the comp anyway.. but anyway i oso neva come to play games.. i jux visited other ppl's blog and sae "thankx for being my fren".. er.. sounds abit lik im leaving or dying.. touchwood! but u neva noe, life is so fragile.. after the adam khoo camp, i realli learnt alot alot.. its so emotional kinda tingy.. while u can sae im being brainwashed by dem.. but tis is one time i dun mind being brainwashed.. sumtimes it helps to be brainwashed.. u can sort of start all over again.. which i realli hope i can.. i have to achieve my goals.. i know it wont be easy.. but i guess im lik a newborn turtle.. after birth, i had to make the long journey to the ocean to make sure seagulls dun eat me.. tis is the part wen im learning new tings.. and after i reach the ocean i had to fight for my survival in tis competitive world.. and i believe i can do it.. i muz do it..

to all my frenz out dere.. thankx for being my fren again.. life can neva go on wifout frenz.. i cant imagine how izzit lik to be wifout frenz.. and i jux hope, 20yrs down the road, u guys stil remembers me and i wil remember u.. wen i see u guys in orchard road or any place, i hope we can jux hug each other warmly and not jux hi bye and go.. i hope we can stil chat abt life todae in the future.. and joke abt it.. and we wil sit down and talk abt wad r the goals we haf set now and achieved dem.. i believe every1 wil achieve all their goals.. and of course i believe i can too..

2005-01-21T17:58:00.000+08:00

updating le finally.. cos now cant log on to play maplestory.. lolx.. jux realized alot of ppl play lor.. haha.. hmm.. todae hari raya.. den i whole day rot at home.. haha.. neva study oso.. jux finished watching a vcd.. dragonheart.. very long ago de movie.. nth much to sae.. next week go AK camp liaox.. see those ppl who wen le come back so scary.. they sae abt the camp til so scary.. anyway i dun wan to be brainwashed by AK lor.. u see all the teachers nowadays everyting tat comes out frm their mouth is adam khoo.. scary isnt it.. anyway hope i wun be so affected by the course.. its so wad.. kkx.. nth to write liaox..

2005-01-12T18:42:00.000+08:00

...LiFe SuX...

man.. life realli sux.. tis is so tiring.. i dunno wad to do.. how to handle all tis.. all tis shit in one day? first ting in the morning.. go check which class dun haf ohp.. den after tat go GO for pa lor.. den they neva switch on the amplifer for the new block.. den sorta got scolded.. major chong, mrs tan, mr wong.. haix.. den SOME ppl jux left liddat lor.. escape the scolding.. wads tis.. cant stand it.. den everyting oso mi.. everyting oso my fault.. vp onli lor.. my fault ar.. not we neva train our juniors.. they learn so long stil dunno.. piss.. wads their prob.. they not stupid wad.. can come anderson lehz.. arg.. den after the scolding go new block move ohp.. onli gary, wenhan, kangyuan helped.. they good lor.. even though they playful at times.. but at least they do their stuff.. unlike SOME ppl who wen off wen i ask them to help.. den after moving to the GO dere onli.. ms yoong came and ask mi where to get chair.. den i hafta direct the guys to take the chair.. hall lehz.. upper sec dunno hall haf chair.. cant believe it.. den after tat met sheryl and lee teck.. they dunno how to work the visualizer in the new block.. wah.. new stuff.. i wen to try and help.. oso dunno.. neva teach us.. den luckily the technician jux came to sch.. den ask him help.. dunno he got or not.. cos wen i ask him i not realli polite.. oops.. anyway after tat i start moving the ohp frm GO to 4/2.. den i wen back to mr tan's chem class.. missed more than half of the lesson i tink.. haix..

then after tat is lessons all the way.. til efl.. den missed abit of geog class lor.. hafta go earlier mah.. help set up.. ok wasnt tat bad.. den i hafta clear all the junk at the backstage.. cos mr neo ask US to.. den in the end is mi.. den clear lor.. whicheva cca throw all those stuff at backstage, i make sure u all gonna pay for it.. i noe sum of the stuff r frm drama.. after the speechday they jux throw dere..

then after efl mr neo talked to us.. til lik 315.. den campfire rehearsal 330 start lor.. then my juniors didnt start setting up earlier.. wait for mi lor.. den i lik arg.. den rush rush rush lor.. in the end lik 4 den finish.. den all the settings not good yet den start.. den TIS guy pisses mi off.. who the hell does he tink he is.. frm the DJ club big ar.. tink he noe everyting.. tis campfire they cant do.. so too bad lor.. who ask pa has been doing sec1 campfire for lik centuries ago? anyway y the sch need such a club wen dere is pa? den spend money on sumting not so commonly use.. y not spend on pa.. wad the hell is the sch's prob.. neva appreciate us.. den of course dere were sum tings dat didnt wen rite for the rehearsal.. but alrite.. jux cant stand my juniors.. do tings so slow.. no sense of urgency.. den in the onli oso mi do.. we got teach dem how to set up.. how can 4get.. den after the campfire, mrs ang talked to mi.. tell mi abt all those delays, mic not working etc etc.. haha.. for once i tink shes realli nice.. she wasnt pissed wif us.. thank goodness.. she stil smile smile talk to mi.. yea shes nice..

oh ya.. during the campfire the lion dance was practising.. haix.. i quit liaox.. but i so wan to join it.. but i cant memorize lion dance's step.. haix.. den i quit.. i lik lor.. budden haix..

anyway after everyting, sumting lifted up my mood.. haha.. its amusing.. a rat.. it run run run til the stairs to the hall.. den it wen all the way up.. lolx.. so cute lor.. lolx.. den after amusing myself wif the rat, i wen off..

oh ya.. horror struck mi todae too.. physics mastery test is tmr! arg! cant believe it.. die la.. i todae so tired how to study for it.. haix.. dats y todae is lik a whole day of shit.. haix..

2005-01-07T18:08:00.000+08:00

yox.. here to update.. hmm.. been 1 week of sch.. nth much.. orientation programme.. or izzit? not sure.. anyway had talks after talks.. den haf learning journey.. go NEWater plant.. den hear ppl talk dere onli lor.. sian.. den got CIP and Mercy Relief.. at least i did sumting to help the ppl who were hit.. yea.. great! but tiring.. anyway todaes fri.. reflection day.. i neva write the stupid essay lehz.. jialat.. muz write meh.. anyway todae morning wen chengsan cc play bball.. woah the toilet dere is damn nice! LOLX.. oh shucks.. tmr got flag day.. sian.. stupid ting.. haix.. no choice hafta go.. but is at city hall lor.. so far! but no choice i guess.. yup.. update til here.. sian.. i feel so slack.. oh ya.. i wanna update abt teachers.. we got Mama Chong again for maths.. to me its alrite.. at least i dun dare to sleep in her class.. oops! not supposed to sleep at sec4.. den we got ACS for physics! wonder if hes alrite.. den we got Theresa Lim for geog.. shld be alrite i guess.. we got Thomas Tan for chem.. oso dunno good or not.. den the rest i 4got le la.. haha.. ok.. hope every1 wil haf a pleasant year ahead! best wishes!

2005-01-02T11:05:00.000+08:00

hApPy NeW yEaR eVeRyOnE!!!

well well.. one more year has pass.. haha.. wanna wish every1 happy new year.. 2005 le.. so fast.. cant believe one year pass so fast sia.. hope 2005 wil be a betta year for everyone.. if ur 2004 was good enuff, 2005 wil be even betta.. rite? yup hope so.. and i hope 2005 wil be a betta year for mi too.. cos o'lvl liaox.. scared scared.. haha.. anyway tmr first day of sch.. looking forward to seeing every1.. on my part la.. haha.. new sch year start le.. i hope i wil be able to come online less often.. onli weekends.. i hope i can do tat.. its kinda hard.. but ya.. lolx.. sort of new year resolution huh.. but it neva works for mi.. u noe.. every year at tis time of the year, u come up wif all big plans and resolution onli to find u cant keep them after january.. at least for mi la.. so realli hope tis year i can keep dem til lik o'lvl over? woah.. kinda hard for mi i guess.. hmm.. anyway here r sumtings to sae to ppl..

yun: haha thankx for all the wishes! wish u happy everyday too! yup can see u more often le.. haha.. upper sec le.. work hard.. jiayou!

luan, grace, rachel, zijun: happy new year! haha.. looking forward to seeing u all on the new year.. =)

2004-12-26T13:15:00.000+08:00

woah.. finally got time to update.. hmm.. lets see.. update abt how i spend xmas bah.. haha..
24/12: i wen church very early.. 2pm.. go dere prepare for party.. den at 330 every1 starts to come.. we practice for our carolling one more time and we r off.. for carolling.. was quite fun.. wen 3 houses and hospital.. so total sing 4 times.. and by the time we wen back to church, its alreadi lik 10 liaox.. played games.. den its here!
25/12: xmas~! countdown and ya.. partypopers etc etc.. den we had lotsa food.. turkey, logcake etc.. den we overnite at church lor.. haha.. hmm.. we jammed at midnite.. lolx.. beside our church is a old folks home.. oops.. haha.. nvm.. den we watched mousehunt and jimmy neutron.. haha.. abit wanna fall asleep.. den after 2 movies is PS2.. play play den i sleep at 5am or 6.. 4got.. den wake up at 8.. go mac for breakfast.. den go home.. didnt sleep.. den i 3pm go church rehearsal for the mini skit for the kids.. haha.. den church was alrite.. was wif the kids playing and everyting.. fun! haha.. den after church we wen orchid country club.. eat xmas dinner.. hehe.. alrite la.. had lotsa fun! wen the chicken came we deliver the head and butt to other ppl.. lolx.. den after dinner we played bowling.. eee.. i so long neva play.. sux lik shit liaox.. sian.. den after bowling wen to watch meet the fockers.. lolx.. the show damn funny.. haha.. den wen home.. reach home at 230.. bathe.. slept at 3.. tis morning 1130 den wake up... haha..

2004-12-23T15:23:00.000+08:00

CHRISTMAS!!

woah.. time realli flies.. its christmas already! cant believe it.. christmas means the end of the year liaox.. means i going to sec4 liaox.. arg! scary! nvm.. haha.. anyway tis christmas.. i damn broke.. so neva bought presents.. paiseh every1.. next year bah.. next year wil haf de.. i wil be more rich.. haha.. yea.. paiseh paiseh..

zijun: haha wun de la.. im sure u wil be familiar wil sum1 in the class one.. dun worry.. wah stil haf 60+ best.. =p

shiyun: haha.. muz take de lor.. tats y i oso sian.. haha.. hmm.. gud luck for yours! haha.. cannot spend too much time wif ur ding de la.. studies important.. haha.. p^o^q

lyndy: hey thankx for remembering mi.. LOLX.. take carez too!

rachel: u jiayou for ur maths too.. cannot let other ppl kan bian u.. =)

bryan: hey can gimme ur blog link again? i tink i lost it.. lolx.. neva update my links.. cya soon!

qing: hey.. nvm la.. lolx.. anyway thankx for the present! haha.. i bu she de hang on my hp sia.. wait til i get new hp den i hang.. =p

luan: haha nvm la.. i oso very very long neva tag at ur blog le.. oops.. paiseh..

anqi: haha.. okok but neva see u online liaox.. u next time online ask mi for the song lor.. =) haha is u not holy la.. =p take carez for the new sch year! =)

qiao: ya take carez too! =) cya ard.. actually sae u todae alreadi.. u todae doing the guides ting.. at the grass patch.. lolx.. =)

2004-12-20T21:25:00.000+08:00

whoops.. finally came to update again.. been busy u see.. as least to mi.. well.. i updated my wishlist.. lolx.. christmas coming.. hope santa wil gimme present.. lolx.. crap.. im so broke now.. as in realli broke.. onli got a misery purple note in my wallet lor.. haix.. and im in debt too.. siao liao la.. how to return.. haix.. eh im crapping here.. oh! my library books! they r supposed to be due on sun.. tmr tues le.. arg! 4got! die die! hmm.. all of a sudden become very sian.. lik u see, schs starting and i haven start on anyting yet.. anyting meaning preparations for the coming year and the mastery tests.. sadx.. also u see, im so darn broke.. wanna go out oso cant.. dun even noe where to borrow money frm.. loansharks.. haha.. den i wil haf free pig head.. hehe.. oink oink! tis is sian.. nth to write jux crapping here.. been long since i visit any blogs.. so sorrie.. i wil do tat wen im free.. realli sorrie.. i feel so bad neva visit.. haha.. mayb ppl dun even care if i visit or not.. haha.. mayb im jux 4gotten.. u noe lik the boy in the movie "the forgotten".. i jux disappear into nowhere.. eeekk.. dats scary.. where would i go? hmm.. anyway xmas is realli near.. den stil busy.. by the time im free liaox, sch starts.. arG!!

2004-12-13T22:53:00.000+08:00

yea.. finally got the chance to update.. haha.. hmm.. lets see.. haven had a chance to update since last wednesday? yup.. after my PA chalet on mon-wed, i wen to another chalet on thurs-sun.. church camp to be precise.. den had fun dere nevertheless.. mostly slack and play.. haha.. at nite watch movie.. lolx.. last nite i 6am sleep.. den tired loh.. den wen home neva sleep.. on sun nite stil go frenz house watch soccer.. aww.. arsenal drew chelsea.. damn.. anyway im stil tired now.. haha.. hoping for a gud nite sleep tonite.. hehe..

woah.. cant believe how short my entry is.. haha.. dunno y.. no mood write i guess.. tired.. wah.. mind go blank liaox.. write more later or tmr.. *yAwNx* sianx..

2004-12-08T20:16:00.000+08:00

*yAwNx* man.. so tired.. jux came back frm chalet.. hmm.. ok not realli came back abt 2 in the afternoon.. den sleep til 7 to eat den now den come blog.. tis year PA chalet is lik the worse.. haha.. cos we the whole day slack in the room and watch tv lor.. lolx.. cool rite.. neva hear b4 chalet ppl liddat de.. but got no where to go.. on budget oso.. so.. ya.. practically neva play anyting dere la.. jux bbq den slack at room.. den we oso dun haf xbox game so cant play either.. so liddat lor.. den tis year one is lik damn tired.. dunno y.. previous years de chalet can both nite neva sleep.. now cant le.. first nite neva sleep den second nite den sleep.. first nite was lik no space in room den we wen outside to the sesame streets dere to sleep.. lolx.. act neva sleep la.. we were talking dere.. ya.. whole nite dere.. den liddat lor.. haha boring chalet.. lolx..

anyway im off to another chalet tmr.. haix.. tired! lolx.. my church de chalet.. guess wil be quite boring cos its lik camp tat kind de.. not lik normal chalet can play whole day.. so sadx lor.. but too bad la.. haha.. hope it wil be fun.. i guess it wun be fun for mi.. cos im the camp IC.. so pressure.. ya.. i hate being tat lor.. y does it haf to mi everytime.. crap.. nvm im gonna be damn bo chap and relax abt it.. who cares rite..

hmm.. oh ya i got my geog txtbk, ss txtbk and geog MC frm my seniors.. woah.. his MC stil got notes.. wahaha.. next year no need buy loh! anyway im looking for emaths txtbk and exp chi de.. hmm.. see who haf bah.. haha.. oh man.. talking abt books, i haven lik touched any book for so long.. dunno how many weeks le.. tink got month le bah.. haha.. jialat.. i so scared now.. so busy tis holx sia.. im mean ya la not as busy as others but to mi is already busy le.. =p haha.. haix.. next year i tink i wil die badly.. stil haven do my maths lor.. and the mastery test is lik 1 mth away.. maths chem phy.. all haf mastery.. if all fail den wad? hafta drop all? arg! no!! haix..

2004-12-03T21:24:00.000+08:00

hey ok.. im gonna update.. haha.. oh wellx guess u ppl miss mi huh.. =P anyway.. ya.. nth to update oso.. lolx.. been playing maplestory practically everyday.. uh man.. guess dere goes my eyesight.. and dere goes my dream.. haix.. oops.. time realli flys.. its december alreadi.. uh man.. tis is sick.. time flew so fast.. gosh.. suddenly im so so afraid.. afraid of going sec4.. afraid of moving on.. scared tat i wil continuing failing.. haix.. y.. jux tinking back at kindergarten.. life is so simple.. den we grow up and tings get complicated.. y cant life jux be simple? haha.. oh how we all wish life is simple.. but its not.. haha.. so.. ya..

anyway qing and qi, i oso wanna go library study la.. haha.. hmm.. i got a plan.. how abt we everyday go library study.. den if haf tings on den nvm.. if dun haf anyting on on tat day den we go? haha.. gimme ans asap hor.. dec liaox.. haha.. =) hmm.. thankx to all the ppl who tagged! =) u all rockx.. den make mi paiseh lor.. cos i neva visit ur blog for so long.. so im gonna visit now.. hmm.. mayb i shld stop playing maplestory for awhile.. its addictive ya noe.. guess muz stop le la.. sumbody stop mi!

wen to watch incredibles only yest.. so late le.. haha.. anyway watched at 9pm.. and the cinema stil so full.. but yea la the show is nice.. cool powers they haf.. jack jack has the best power.. haha.. little devil.. cute.. hmm.. i tink tats all i can write.. cya everybody!! cant wait to see u all wen sch starts.. sch starts means we r sec4.. tink abt tis.. we r the biggest in the sch.. except mayb for sec5 la.. but yea we most seniors.. tink abt those sec1s shy shy walk ard during first day.. den we so big liddat walk ard.. haha.. =p crap la.. lolx.. take carez every1!!

2004-11-27T22:13:00.000+08:00

wootx~! thankx guys for tagging..
jenn: thankx
yun: yeap nice song.. haha.. paiseh hor tat time neva reply den neva send u the song.. paiseh.. =p ooo.. 6plus coming oh.. dun be too excited la.. haha.. relax abit..
rachel: arg.. i stil cant get the flowers!!
qi: haha its everytime la.. =p anyway shutter is nice la.. go watch =) take carez..
pat: yea taufik! ya chinese or english.. who cares? both rox~!
brokenheart: whoeva u r.. thankx for tagging.. God bless.. =)
qing: haha yea lor.. misssssss yoooouuuu.. errrr.. anyway hope to see ur blog up soon.. =)

hmm.. guess i haf been slacking ard lately.. dunno y.. been playing intensively at MS.. urgh.. abit hooked i guess.. wad else haf i been doing? hmm.. tv, eat, sleep.. oh man.. i gonna get fat too.. lolx.. no more playing and slacking frm monday onwards.. its down to serious work.. no more fooling ard man.. =) urgh.. my table jux irks mi.. its so darn messy.. but who cares rite.. haha.. nth to write sia.. life too boring i guess.. tats y holx sux.. anyway i skip dragon dance todae.. abit not feeling well+leg pain frm yest bball playing.. so ya.. too bad.. i guess coach wun choose mi alreadi la.. miss 2 weeks le.. haix.. nvm.. mayb if i practise and train harder i can.. *shrugs*
anyway take carez every1.. enjoy the remaining month of the holx.. =)

2004-11-24T10:56:00.000+08:00

whoops.. ok.. i gonna update now.. haha.. cos i bu she de dat s.h.e entry lolx.. =p hmm.. been busy lately.. yup busy wif the church camp.. uhh.. stupid la.. im supposed to be the camp ic.. uhh.. tat sux.. but no choice.. haha.. anyway yea was planning lor.. but had fun after all the plannings everyday.. haha.. wen northpoint lor.. but nth much dere bah.. haha.. nth much for my life during holx.. bored..

oh ya! 4got to mention.. i wen to watch shutter on monday.. woah.. quite scary to mi.. i mean its sort of the most scariest among all i watched.. so yea.. haha.. deres a long chase scene lor.. as in the ghost chase after the guy.. ya.. alot of sudden scary loud music and all tat.. but overall yea its a good show to watch..

hmm.. thankx to all who tagged..
qiao: yea.. thankx for tagging.. haha.. add mi at MS hor.. haha..
bryan: hey.. i cant access ur new blog lehz.. mayb u type wrong one? hmm..
min: haha yea.. nice song.. haha..
pat: whoops has it been tat long? didnt realize.. anyway taufik rox~!
lyndy: congrats on the success of the op worz.. haha.. hmm.. yea.. nice song.. but i dun dare go download the eng version..
yun: haha.. aiya boyband is all okok onli la.. girlband rox.. i tot u gurls alwaes sae gurl power? haha yea gurl power.. =p
jacq, chong: haha yea.. ^5! thankx for tagging..
rachel: yea.. update le.. haha.. thankx for intro-ing mi MS.. =p

~S.H.E~

2004-11-10T22:44:00.000+08:00

came to update!! todae is probably the happiest day of my life.. haha.. oh wellx i exaggerated.. lolx.. haha.. by looking at those pix u shld noe y im so happy! haha.. anyway many of the pix r blurred.. sorrie.. lousy photographer here.. haha.. and the background sort of spoil the pix.. u all can click to enlarge it.. but plz DUN save it into ur comp can? plz.. i wanna haf copyright over it.. plz dun.. thankx alot! call mi selfish i dun care.. haha..

yes! i wen to S.H.E handshake session.. well i guess many of u dun realli care.. cos its onli handshake and not autograph.. but boy, it was a great experience for mi.. haha.. its my first time attending such tings.. unbelievable rite.. yup believe it.. haha.. and im damn high now! haha..

i wen straight to ngee ann city after remedial lessons.. reach abt 2+.. den started queuing le.. haha.. oh wow.. frm 2pm to 7pm.. my leg and butt r all numb! haha.. but its worth it! we sit dere wait for time to pass lor.. haha.. den jingyi came to join dean and mi.. den jingyi's sis came.. haha.. den we jux wait lor.. after a long long wait, finally they r here!!! haha.. the crowd immediately rushed forward.. and im pissed wif tat.. we all came to early in the end got pushed to the back.. anyway they sang 2 songs.. didnt realli listen.. haha.. was busy snapping pix.. though everyone was standing and its kinda hard to see wad u r snapping at cos u hafta lift up the cam into the air.. which explains all those blurred pix.. haha.. yea.. cos i was pushed to the back and den so far alreadi.. haix.. so disappointed.. next time come late oso can le la.. haix.. nvm.. den wen its finally for the handshake part, i got scolded by the crew for cutting queue!! wth lor.. i was here so damn early and they sae i cut queue.. wads ur prob.. 4get it.. i wun let tat person spoil my mood.. haha.. anyway during the queue for the handshake, it was damn hot and humid.. and all the ppl's breath.. haha.. den i guess i got contribute to the heat and everyting.. lolx.. paiseh la.. cant help it.. haha.. oops! den finally it was my turn.. haha.. wen up the stage.. was DAMN NERVOUS.. haha.. oh wellx.. nervous til i lik dreaming dere.. faint memory.. arg! i hate tat! i wan to haf clear pic of everyting upstage de.. haix.. guess i gotta go for more of these so i wun get nervous.. haha.. anyway cos i was nervous i didnt sae anyting AT ALL to dem.. haix.. im such a failure..

ok.. first it was HeBe!! wen up and smiled at her.. she smiled back.. omg! pretty!! haha.. budden i tink she a little bit too much make-up.. but stil pretty.. but she was kinda thin.. oh my.. muz be the company realli stress her out.. poor ting.. budden last time she became vegetarian.. so haix.. poor ting.. so thin.. den HeBe shook my hand.. but is onli by the fingers part.. not the whole hand.. haha.. its the same for everyone de la.. haha.. HeBe rOx!! =D

den it was SeLiNa!! wen up and smiled at her too.. she smiled back too.. haha.. woah tis is the part where i cant remember anyting! arg!! she was pretty i guess.. a little bit of too much make-up too.. haha.. but yea pretty!! shook my hands wif the fingers part too.. haha.. SeLiNa rOx!! =D

den was ElLa!! oh my.. she won mi over totally tonite.. she da best tonite!! wen up to her.. smiled.. she smiled back.. and shook my hand wif the whole palm!! not jux tat she shook wif both hands!! omg! shes so nice.. and shes so pretty too! she didnt haf alot of make-up too! oh my.. i jux love her! shes seems so close.. while the other two does not.. i was so shocked tat i couldnt sae anyting.. arg! shld haf said "jiayou" or wad! haha.. anyway was happy wif her! ElLa RoX tOtAlLy!! =D=D=D

S.H.E rOx!!! S.H.E rOx!!! S.H.E rOx!!! S.H.E rOx!!! S.H.E rOx!!! S.H.E rOx!!! S.H.E rOx!!! S.H.E rOx!!! S.H.E rOx!!!

2004-11-10T22:42:00.000+08:00

S.H.E!! HeBe pReTtY!!! =D
~S.H.E~

2004-11-10T22:41:00.001+08:00

S.H.E!! hAhA HeBe LoOkEd bOrEd.. LoLx!!
~S.H.E~

2004-11-10T22:41:00.000+08:00

SeLiNa!! aNd a LiL oF ElLa!!
~S.H.E~

2004-11-10T22:40:00.000+08:00

gOt A sHoT oF HeBe!! bUt a LiL bLuR..
~S.H.E~

2004-11-10T22:39:00.000+08:00

cLeAr ShOt oF SeLiNa aNd ElLa!! oOpS wAs tOo UnStAbLe wIf ThE cAm.. gOt hEbE oUt.. sAdX..
~S.H.E~

2004-11-10T22:38:00.000+08:00

aNoThEr S.H.E pIc!! tHeY rOcK!! wAdS wIf aLl tHe cAm..
~S.H.E~

2004-11-10T22:36:00.000+08:00

gOoD sHoT!! S.H.E!! wAhAhA!!
~S.H.E~

2004-11-10T22:35:00.000+08:00

S.H.E sInGiNg!! oOpS bLuR pIc! wAdS wIf tAt fAn? LoLx!
~S.H.E~

2004-11-10T22:33:00.000+08:00

dA DJ aT tHe BeGiNnInG.. nIcE pIc Of HeBe!!
~S.H.E~

2004-11-09T19:02:00.000+08:00

update.. hmm.. ya ya.. sixplus rox.. haha.. oh my.. y did i sae tat.. haha.. thankx pat, jq for tagging.. is jq=jiaqing? or who? haha i dunno.. paiseh.. thank rachel for tagging.. yea see i updating now.. haha.. thankx anqi for tagging.. hmm.. ur results surely not worse den my lor.. i got mastery test for all subject.. if fail i can drop out of sch loh.. haha.. hmm.. i wun vote de.. waste money.. haha.. daphne has funnie voice.. but shes alrite.. haha.. i not crazy over idol de.. hmm.. haha.. yup take carez everybody! =)

hmm.. todae tues.. tired day.. dunno y.. haha.. hmm.. lets see.. todae morning wake up.. was late for remedial again.. crap.. lolx.. nvm la.. they had test anyway.. budden too late i reached halfway thru the test.. so stil hafta take the remaining half of the test.. haha.. anyway its geog test.. stupid.. i didnt noe alot of qn.. die.. hope not counted next year.. haha.. oh wellx.. den it was hist lesson.. we got zaleha for hist.. ok la.. den we got yong for ss.. so ok bah.. its the other way round onli.. doesnt matter since its combined humanities.. den we had physics.. weather hot.. cant concentrate.. haha.. anyway we learn latent heat todae.. didnt realli listen though.. arg.. hmm.. tmr stil got lesson.. haix.. so boring.. hate all these lessons! one side of mi wanna study the other side didnt wan to study.. so i dunno lehz.. haha.. anyway wif all those tv shows now at nite, how to study? haha.. i dun go online at nite now.. cos watching tv! lolx.. yea.. muz protect my eyesight too.. hope the degrees dun go too high.. hehe.. hmm.. tats all for todae la.. nth special to update.. ~sMiLeZ~

2004-11-06T19:42:00.001+08:00

hey came to update again.. at home so sian.. yea i changed song.. i tink tis song quite nice.. haha.. dun lik can jux stop the music.. haha.. hmm.. nth to update sia.. nowadays dun haf stuff to update abt.. hmm.. lets see.. update abt todae bah..

todae morning wen sch.. oh great.. nobody was dere.. i mean nobody else.. the sch is supposed to be closed cos of 5day week.. den we stil haf dragon dance training.. oh wellx.. tat sux.. ok nvm.. den go dere quite sian.. not the usual ppl le.. i mean those good ones la.. all left.. arg.. crap.. budden todae learn lion dance.. sumting new.. haha.. den next year chinese new year gonna perform.. but i dun tink i wil be on stage de la.. sux at it.. blah.. i admit i damn lousy at it.. couldnt memorize the steps.. lik shit liddat.. im crap.. piece of shit.. so tinking of leaving now.. if chinese new year dun haf perform den i leave.. haix.. realli feel so crap at anderson.. dun even haf a decent cca.. too bad la.. fated de.. fated to sux at anderson.. so nvm.. accept the fact le..

hmm tried to study.. well did abit of maths.. haven realli start intensive studying.. hope to start soon though.. cant slack now.. look at my results and u wil laugh..

2004-11-03T20:35:00.000+08:00

hey thankx for all who tagged~!

Qiao: haha okok thankx for tagging i oso hao xiang very long neva go ur blog? paiseh.. haha.. i going to tag now..

Anqi: haha yea.. thankx for tagging.. yea ur blog's nice too.. =)

Rachel: ya ok i wil go tag at ur blog wen i haf the time..

Lyndy: thankx for tagging.. God bless u too~!

Yun: erm.. its supposed to be read.. haha.. i dunno y the person go put white colour.. so.. hmm.. dunno.. haha.. can read bah.. haha.. =) take carez~!

~nEw LaYoUt yEt AgAiN~

2004-11-01T07:16:00.000+08:00

hey finally came to update le.. haha.. hmm.. hows tis new layout? i kinda lik tis layout.. except of the fact tat the pix take a long time to load and tat the blog entry title cant be shown.. sadz.. but nvm.. anyway i tink tis layout kinda more joyous? as in peaceful? do u feel tat way? haha.. gimme ur comments!

wellx its 7.20 in the morning now.. haha.. most of my sec3 frenz r taking their o'lvl exams for express chi soon.. oh wellx.. i dun hafta take.. anyway wish dem all good luck.. jiayou! tats all bah.. woke up early den cant go back to sleep.. arg! nvm sleep later.. haha.. now nobody use comp nobody to fight wif mi.. haha.. =P

oh ya.. a proper thankx to anqi, amirul, amanda, rachel, shiyun, simone, sharon, cp, jacq, pat for tagging.. haha.. long list.. lolx.. special thankx to anonymous for tagging.. whoeva u r.. thankx for making mi realized tat.. haha.. =)
anqi: u wanna use the layout? now tat i changed le.. u wan i can gif u.. haha.. =)

thank God for sending mi tat priest to talk to us.. thank God for enlightening mi.. =D

~LiFe AfTeR eXaMs~

2004-10-25T20:06:00.000+08:00

hmm.. nice topic eh.. actually is cant tink of wad to write.. keke.. but nvm.. anyway i got a new song.. f.i.r de lydia piano version.. nice rite.. lolx.. anyway update abt life after exams bah.. lolx..

sun: hmm.. woke up.. go tuition.. do binomial theorem.. go home.. sleep.. lolx.. den go church.. den after tat pei my bro go burfday present hunting.. haha.. long time neva go window shopping le.. anyway i stil bot a CD.. haha.. a cool cd! its the popular pop songs instrumental de.. i tink the name of the cd is "angels hits" of sumting liddat.. got nice songs instrumental.. love it! haha.. kkx.. enuff abt the cd.. wen home ard 9+.. after tat 11pm go my frenz house watch arsenal vs man u.. arg.. arsenal lost so sad.. nvm.. set record enuff le.. 49 games unbeaten.. onli ac milan can match tat.. haha.. kkx.. den reach home 2am le.. sleep til 5am wake up go sch.. haha..

todae: hmm.. todae ar.. not enuff sleep.. tired.. haha.. took cab to sch todae.. wif ajay and ron.. oh man.. i cant believe they r not gonna be wif us next year.. haix.. 2 frenz gone.. hope can stil hang out together or wad.. hmm.. den go sch as usual todae.. set up PA system for the day.. i cant remember got wad todae.. anyway we were playing cards for the whole day.. play til sian.. lolx.. den after tat in the afternoon got art fest rehearsal.. and great.. i lost my temper again.. was damn fedup.. i dunno is becos of the way the sec2s r doing the work or the teachers tats pissing mi off.. tink is both bah.. luckily im stil cool enuff to tink of how to help dem.. anway i wanna comment wenhan and sheryl here.. they did a great job.. oh ya, take carez sheryl.. ok den after tat wen home le lor.. tired.. now stil haven eat dinner.. not hungry.. ate my lunch at 4pm.. keke..

hmm.. tats all abt life after exams.. kinda boring.. tmr is gonna be more boring.. imagine mi nth to do during the inter-class games.. i jux too lan to join any games le la.. too bad.. i tmr gonna go to sch after the recess.. dun gif a damn.. and i jux hate ppl who tink they r so good at everyting.. even wanna join 2 games while sum ppl neva join one.. oh wellx i said i dun care.. so nvm.. shant name and names too..

anyway i tink im going crazy.. im SO in a study mood.. m i crazy? i dun haf any chinese o'lvl coming up ya noe.. but stil study mood.. wad a crazy shit m i..

arg.. y m i so wad lor.. i dunno.. low-confidence? low self-esteem? i dunno.. i realli dun care.. i dun care abt wad ppl tink of mi.. i dun live for others.. i cant live to please every1.. i live for God.. i muz haf faith in God.. i noe tat.. i wil see sum light at the end of the tunnel.. i believe God is wif mi and he had great plans for mi.. its up to mi now to accept him totally and follow his plans..

~aNdErSoN sUx~gOt BaCk ReSuLtS~

2004-10-22T22:20:00.000+08:00

hmm.. lots ta sae todae.. but cut short bah.. hmm.. todae got back results.. omg.. was darn disappointed.. dun wish ta publish it publicly.. find mi for more info.. haix.. anyway it was super terrible.. worse than any of u can imagine.. haix.. and wen mrs tan talk to sec3 abt results i got a shocked.. our class was lik "top" for every subject de msg.. haix.. disappointing! i so down now.. dun talk to mi.. go away! haix..

anyway im damn motivated now.. todae after sch go tuition.. finished up a sec4 chapter of amaths.. binomial theorem.. no i DO NOT wish to drop amaths.. hear mi! i dun care.. i gonna study.. im crazy! im hoping to finished half of my sec4 stuff during the holx.. if can finish all den all the better.. den whole of next year for revision.. i hope i can do tat..
anyway, i thought abt it.. and i tink the real reasons for our class lousy results is the teachers.. i hate anderson.. anderson sux! wtf r they doing.. throw a bunch of lousy pupils into one class.. liddat not enuff.. throw a bunch of lousy teachers into the lousy class.. how to improve? no brains! i tell u anderson shows favourtism.. yea.. they see got potential den everyting oso gif dem.. leaving the rest in the lurch.. i dun care.. im writing tis.. report mi for all u wan.. let the teachers and principals noe how lousy their system had gone.. and how lousy they r.. i shant name any teachers.. find mi for more info as usual.. i can tell u the full details.. as in who r the lousy ones and who r not.. jux look the msg for each subject.. lousy teachers=high msg.. good teachers=low msg.. it shows! no denial.. and i jux hate those class wif those good teachers.. namely 3/3 and 3/6.. i cant believe they r kind of showing favourtism to 3/3.. i tink is becos their maths is good.. and yes we r banded according to maths.. sad case rite? so i sae anderson sux~! all the pri sch kids out dere.. dun go anderson u wil regret for life..

oh ya.. i wished to comment of singapore idol.. cos it kinda sux too.. even though i dun realli got "chase" after the competition.. oh wellx.. i stil noe abit.. todae maia jux got out.. its all a set-up! i guess they realli eliminate who the judges wanted to eliminate and they jux fake the sms votes.. its not fair.. ppl who r good and popular shld not even be eliminated since they r so popular and had tons of ppl voting for dem.. singapore idol? all we get in the end is jux another william hung.. who noes?